Venting perfect timing, as always

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i have an art project due tomorrow. i'm not finished with it yet but i hate it and there's no chance to salvage it or start a new drawing. i should have started it earlier, but for the past week i couldn't even get myself out of bed. i have an exam on tuesday that i'm definitely not ready for. there are more assignments and projects that need to be completed this week. i have yet another exam that i doubt i'll do well on. there are many other things that i need to get done as soon as humanly possible.
i've worked so hard this entire semester. even after my attempt in september, i've been working so hard to do well in all of my classes. i just can't function these days. physically, i feel like shit. i'm so tired, i wish i could just sleep forever.

i always hit these lows at the worst possible times. i didn't feel stressed by my assignments and nothing bad happened, i just started feeling like this out of nowhere.

there's so much to do, but waking up feels like a chore. i can't wait for this life to be over. uni is still the only thing that motivates me to stay alive a bit longer (not that i have a choice), but i'm just so tired at the moment.

at least this is the final week of this semester, but i'll have to spend the entire week loathing myself for turning in such mediocre work that makes all of my previous work seem pointless. i can't wait to die.

 

[gulp]

i feel u. uni has got to be the worst thing regarding obligations. bothers u even when ure feeling well

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

I am in a similar situation at this moment. College truly breaks many people including myself, keep going if you have the strength its good that your still fighting despite what you have gone through.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I am 45 and still get nightmares about procrastinating high school work and failing out of uni. I wish I had access to Adderall back then. Thinks would have been so much different for me. School is so traumatizing. Why do we keep reproducing to put more humans through such torture?