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Francesca Woodman ( April 3, 1958 – January 19, 1981 )
You are most welcome.I googled her today, and her photography had such an impact on me. I've thought about her a lot today. When I went walking, I even looked at the world around me and 'freezed' some moments in my mind when I wished I had a decent camera, I felt such a need to have a camera. I don't want to say anything about her fate, it's painful for me, but thank you for sharing her picture here.
You are most welcome.
Nice to hear that you liked her work. I found out about her recently and was also very taken by the rawness and honesty of her work.
Very special. But such creative people are often extremely sensitive and sometimes don't cope well in this world...
( another such genius for me is the American author David Foster Wallace with a very similar strikingly artistic sensibility. )
Very well observed.Yes, I think same about creative people. I've also noticed that if you're talented, it seems like you carry something inside you alone that others maybe don't have inside them, like a weight inside you, a talent. It's something specific about that person and that makes the person unique, but at the same time it maybe is hard for person too, to be a genius for example, must be lonely, to feel and think some kind of truth that belongs to genius only. Can't explain myself... I mean the different kind of loneliness these people experience, is hard.
I know David Foster Wallace, but haven't read anything from him because I am not so good understanding English, but maybe I'll read one day:).
I totally relate to your post in so many ways. I have also been much more attracted and relatable to people who are different then the norm such as hippies and punks and I also used to be a big stoner too because it helped me out a lot when I was depressed in college but now I'm on meds that make me nauseated if I smoke up :( . I have also pushed away most of my old friends (mainly because I grew up and my views changed and I couldn't pretend that I was the same person as I used to be, much more compassionate then I used to be among other things, more Buddhist and not Catholic anymore) . I mainly speak to family as well which is ok because I have a gigantic family (7 siblings). As far as who is attractive to me that has also changed a lot for me. I used to be a lot more shallow when I was younger and would reject girls based on their looks alone and would also try to pretend to be who I thought girls wanted me to be but now am more like 'take it or leave it this is who I am' and care a lot more about personality then looks. I don't want to spend a bunch of time with someone who isn't right for me and would much rather be alone then do the 'fake it 'til you make it' bullshit that people tell you to do.I am just after waking up so i don't know if any of this will make sense.Probably not :)
I Agree 100% with what anna said It's what's on the inside that counts.
I just made to thread for a distraction.Also i find it interesting to see who other people are attracted to.I understand about depression also.
For over a year i was not able to listen to any music,watch tv.I wasn't able to do anything.For a while i was not even able to get out of bed.
My only escape was sleep and even sleep was ruined with bad dreams.
I refused to take any antidepressants.But i finally had to give in.I don't like taking them,they won't fix my problems,but i can now function a little bit better.Not much but a little bit better.
At times there are certain threads here on this site that i do not even open,because i know from the title of the thread that it will just depress me.
So i leave it,maybe i open it the next day and see,if it does depress me i look for some other thread and maybe come back to that one at another time.
For me anyway anything that can distract me for a few minutes a day,just listen to one or two songs,watch an eposide of a tv series,a documentary.
Even just to smile or laugh one time a day for a few seconds.To give me a break.My life is ruined nothing i can do to fix that but i do what i can to escape for a few minutes a day.
A bit over two years ago is when my life was destroyed.Before that I had friends most of these were punks or hippies.i always had a fascination with anyone that was anyway different to most "normal" people.But i have pushed them all away now.I left my job.I only speak with family now and even that is difficult.
I leave my home maybe one time per week for a few hours.
It's just when i see a punk or a hippie i feel like i already know them,i can relate to them,and i know i will have similar interests and ideas to them.
But if i saw a very good looking "normal" male or female,and i saw a not so good looking male or female but they were a punk or hippie.
I would go straight for the punk or hippie first.
Also i am trapped i can't live and i can't die.
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/do-you-feel-trapped.3143/
So i don't know what to do with my time.
I also use a lot of marijuana at first i thought this was really helping me.But if i am to be honest all it does for me is to help me forget about my problems for a while.But they all come back the next day.This was originally going to be a short answer :)
Oh and thank you to everyone who added pictures or commented or joked,it distracted me for a while and the jokes made me laugh also.
Thank You.Time for some coffee :)
...deep philosophical conversation...amen to that!Someone intelligent where I could have a deep philosophical conversation appearances mean nothing to me