littlemisssunshine

littlemisssunshine

Member
Feb 19, 2020
54
Anyone you are worried about leaving behind when you are gone.

Mine would be my son but I know in the long run this is the best all round for him x
 
FreeBIRD

FreeBIRD

Member
Nov 14, 2019
50
My mom and my best friend. The suffering is too much sometimes we have to choose ourselves
 
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Tasdevil

Tasdevil

Student
Jan 20, 2020
115
my mother and sister. I hope I can overcome this anxiety of leaving them behind so I can CTB.
 
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FreeBIRD

FreeBIRD

Member
Nov 14, 2019
50
Yeah it's not easy
 
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Oyoy

Oyoy

Spatula
Feb 2, 2020
741
Mom and boyfriend
 
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anorexic-pigeon

anorexic-pigeon

Member
Feb 29, 2020
38
My twin mostly. He told me that if I CTB, he would too. I don't want to wish that upon him.
 
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Mizzmini45

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2019
447
Identical twin sister. If I leave she's will leave shortly after. It's a curse. Can't leave , don't wanna stay
 
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LLawliet

LLawliet

Am I numb, or am I dead
Mar 3, 2020
55
My boyfriend, two of my best friends, and my dad and his girlfriend. She seems really nice, and she had a daughter that would have been my age, but died of leukaemia when she was a child. I love them but I feel like I can't go on here. Does anyone have any advice that could help? I know what method I want to use and where but I don't know when because I'm legitimately scared. Not of dying but of leaving them. And what if it fail? Sorry for the rant but any advice would be appreciated.
 
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highlyvolatile

highlyvolatile

I don't know anymore.
Feb 14, 2020
278
Siblings and most intermediate family. Not my dads half. (Theyd miss me but i dont care too much for them tbh.)
 
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Dreamless Sleep

Dreamless Sleep

The eternal night before chaos...
Feb 1, 2020
190
I have days where I worry about what my ctb will do to my daughter, since she has mental health and substance abuse issues. But she has spent years not caring what her lifestyle does to me and using me as her emotional punching bag... so I'm getting to the point where I'm trying to put my needs above hers now.
 
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littlemisssunshine

littlemisssunshine

Member
Feb 19, 2020
54
I have days where I worry about what my ctb will do to my daughter, since she has mental health and substance abuse issues. But she has spent years not caring what her lifestyle does to me and using me as her emotional punching bag... so I'm getting to the point where I'm trying to put my needs above hers now.

my son has mental health issues I relate. Every day I'm attacked. Every man I've ever been with has hurt me. I'm done living in such a violent life x
 
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s1mplem3

Arcanist
Mar 4, 2020
454
Not me, I don't have anyone.
 
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selfhater

selfhater

Experienced
Mar 1, 2020
222
sadly i don't have anyone:( i have someone close to me who is suicidal too and he's going to ctb so we both leaving this life
 
W0ND3R_DOG

W0ND3R_DOG

Member
Feb 25, 2020
11
Yes, A friend of mine who I care so much about. I feel like he has been here for me through so much and maybe has even kept me here longer then I would have been otherwise. I know he has considered taking his own life before and it's something we have both talked about in the past. We both have had very rough lives and are both still struggling but he is doing better than me. I wish I could do more to help him. I have such mixed feelings about him too and it is difficult, we are just friends, but lately, I almost wish it was something more. I know he is with someone one else right now and has never thought about me in any other way than a good friend. Regardless, I just feel like I can't leave him if/when I do decide it's time for me to ctb and couldn't live with myself if he were to be the one to find me.
 
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BFishy

Student
Dec 25, 2019
180
My daughter. She is a wicked daddy's girl. She would be devastated.
 

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