I didn't change at all

[Tionally]

I made a post like couple of months saying that I'm leaving this site and I'm focusing on becoming better and trying to change my mindset but tbh since then I didn't improve at all. My life seems even worse now and I'm not really doing anything with it. But I can't bring myself to do or change anything. It just all feels so hopeless and I mostly don't see point in doing anything to change. Plus everything seems like it's too much effort to me even the normal things.

I'm even worse now but I'm not sure if I even wanna die anymore. I don't even know if I care about that now. I just feel so pointless or terrible all the time. I can't find any meaning in life. I can't even find any meaning behind small things. I'm stuck in a loop of feeling terrible and I haven't don anything about that. Didn't even try. I know I have to but I can't bring myself to.

 

[SVEN]

I saw your post in March, sorry things don't seem to have changed or improved much.
Best wishes in your rotten situation.