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fruitninjamaster

fruitninjamaster

I love the high of choking myself
Dec 21, 2025
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I am just wondering, to the celebrities and rich people on here, one of my main struggles is that I am not able to contribute to society and thus have no ambition because my life will be spent struggling to get out of bed.

If you feel like you have it all, why are you here? Does success not bring ease or comfort. Does it bring different struggles? Is life bad no matter where you are on the totem pole?

This is an honest question, I want to hear your story.
 
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iveseenfootage

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Nov 30, 2025
18
I doubt there are any celebrities on here, but I'm fairly well off in life I think, at least so far. I come from a decent family with no serious issues beyond divorce, financially stable, go to an Ivy League university, have friends, a girlfriend, etc. So I think I'm a little qualified to answer. The truth is it's not that complicated, there's something in my brain that's just wrong and has never allowed me to be happy. I can't recall a single time in my life where I ever was. I don't think there will be any fix. Besides self medicating on studs 24/7, which I don't want to do, I can't escape.
 
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Dome42315

Dome42315

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May 1, 2024
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I definitely don't have it all, but I'm doing okay compared to some of the tragic backstories I've seen in this place. I think it's more a lack of hope. I have friends, but I still feel lonely. I graduated from a good college, but I feel no sense of accomplishment. I think for me, it was realizing while I was doing things that should make me happy, I just didn't actually become happy, and that made me face the reality that I might just never be happy at all.
 
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martyrdom

martyrdom

inanimate object
Nov 3, 2025
267
I have a wonderful girlfriend, loving parents, great childhood, had a great job (that I quit of my own volition), lots of friends, good looks, self-confidence, and (until recently) great mental health. Not much money but thats not a factor in my suicidality. A traumatic experience changed everything for me and I want none of it now, I only want to die.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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By no means do I have it all but- I do work. So, in some way I suppose- according to your standards, I contribute somewhat.

Maybe that's a part of the problem though. I'm tired of being expected to contribute when I also struggle. I struggle enormously to get out of bed and function. I just feel like I have less choice in the matter.

I don't really have anything that would be considered debilitating and justify benefits. My parents/ family would also take a very dim view if I didn't support myself. I'm basically tired of being expected to pay for a life I don't want!

I'm even fortunate enough (although- I did also work very hard) to do a (creative) job that I at least used to find fulfilling. But again, I'm not sure it's fulfilling enough for the effort it requires.

When I'm busy, it can be 70+ hour weeks- sometimes working like that for a few months. So effectively I suppose- it's about choice ultimately. Presumably, you feel like you are denied the choice to get on the treadmil and contribute. Those on it though- may feel like they can't get off! That it's running too fast for them to manage and that they can't negotiate a slower speed. Working can become a trap- as much as not working in a way I suspect.

Plus- what are we contributing to? Do we like this world, society, our governments? Do we approve of what they do with our taxes? Is this world something to be proud to be a part of?

Also, are we even recognised for the work we do? How well do you imagine employers treat their employees? Even those at the top of their game? I'm not by any means but, I know some who are. It's not uncommon that the bigger companies they work for treat them like shit! Personally- I've tended to find the 'better to be a big fish in a small pond' anology to be true. So- I don't think you can just assume that those doing well are being treated well necessarily.

I imagine the fear of losing it all is also pretty scary. The further you climb, the further it is to fall. With 'cancel culture' such a real threat these days, I wonder if anyone in the celebrity field feels all that safe.
 

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