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noname223
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- Aug 18, 2020
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I think there is something I am missing about social contexts sometimes. I am autistic-
There was this borderline woman from a self-help group that played with me for a long time. She lied to me massively as it turned out. Dated 5 men behind the back of her boyfriend. I was never mad at her. I just found it really unfair towards her boyfriend. She never learned about the fact her behavior made me really suicidal.
A while after we dated I was really frustrated about online dating. Then i approached her again. I thought maybe she would like that. But my behavior seemingly implied that I know she is dishonest and only plays with me. I haven't thought much about that to that time. But she considered it really offensive. And started to bully me for a couple of months. She was pretty smart but it backfired pretty much and she made an ass out of herself as a consequence. I still don't like that my behavior offended her.
I texted again the liberal autistic woman. I was really fucking sad about getting ghosted by another woman. The liberal autistic woman also played with me and one of her friend attacked me verbally and she let it happen. Later I called him out and since then she tries to ghost me. I find it sort of silly she doesn't come back to the group. She uses excuses maybe they are true maybe they are not true. I tried to reconcile with my latest message but maybe I made everything worse. Sometimes I am not sure whether such behavior is offensive of it. Sometimes human behavior doesn't make much sense to me. In the case of the first woman I also thought it was beneficial for her if we played with open cards. But seemingly she was really fucking pissed.
There was this borderline woman from a self-help group that played with me for a long time. She lied to me massively as it turned out. Dated 5 men behind the back of her boyfriend. I was never mad at her. I just found it really unfair towards her boyfriend. She never learned about the fact her behavior made me really suicidal.
A while after we dated I was really frustrated about online dating. Then i approached her again. I thought maybe she would like that. But my behavior seemingly implied that I know she is dishonest and only plays with me. I haven't thought much about that to that time. But she considered it really offensive. And started to bully me for a couple of months. She was pretty smart but it backfired pretty much and she made an ass out of herself as a consequence. I still don't like that my behavior offended her.
I texted again the liberal autistic woman. I was really fucking sad about getting ghosted by another woman. The liberal autistic woman also played with me and one of her friend attacked me verbally and she let it happen. Later I called him out and since then she tries to ghost me. I find it sort of silly she doesn't come back to the group. She uses excuses maybe they are true maybe they are not true. I tried to reconcile with my latest message but maybe I made everything worse. Sometimes I am not sure whether such behavior is offensive of it. Sometimes human behavior doesn't make much sense to me. In the case of the first woman I also thought it was beneficial for her if we played with open cards. But seemingly she was really fucking pissed.