Sadness20
Experienced
- Nov 1, 2021
- 263
I sometimes tell people about my thoughts of it. The people around me know that I have such thoughts and plans sometimes.
They keep asking me why I smile, thinking about this.
I guess one explanation is, that I don't want them to think I will go through with it and that I want to hide it, even though I'm talking about it.
On the other hand it's probably because it's so freeing to talk about the stuff I usually have to think about (and fight) all by myself
And additionally it's an option for me. Something that would give peace to my mind and when worst comes to worst I still have this.
They keep asking me why I smile, thinking about this.
I guess one explanation is, that I don't want them to think I will go through with it and that I want to hide it, even though I'm talking about it.
On the other hand it's probably because it's so freeing to talk about the stuff I usually have to think about (and fight) all by myself
And additionally it's an option for me. Something that would give peace to my mind and when worst comes to worst I still have this.