Discussion People in relationships, would you want your partner to go with you?

[supremacyofdeath]

My partner and I both struggle with mental health & specifically depression. Lately because of what feels like a lot of stress piling on we both have felt suicidal in some way.
I've began to sort of fantasize in some sort of fucked way of dying with her. She's the love of my life and the only reason I keep fighting on. Lately I can't help but wonder if she wants to go, why don't we both just do it? Though I've brought this up to which she looked at me like I was fucking crazy.
I just think it would be romantic in a way?
To go hand in hand to the great beyond.
I'd try to opt for something a little more peaceful and painless too. Cuddling together as our lungs fill with carbon monoxide or as the SN slowly suffocates us.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? Do you guys wish your partners would support your chase in death and perhaps even join you?

 

[monolog]

Fuck that my dream to get a gf and kill each other on peak of love, but it will never happen.
It would be awesome if I was young. Now it seems pointless. Probably gonna try heroine instead

 

[CatLvr]

Jesus Christ NO! A huge part of my suicidal ideation actually started because of the way he treated me. I felt worthless and that there was nothing in this world for me. I came SO close one time -- he almost got what he wanted. But then he fucked around and pissed me off. Fuck him. (He wishes ... )

 

[supremacyofdeath]

Fuck that my dream to get a gf and kill each other on peak of love, but it will never happen.
It would be awesome if I was young. Now it seems pointless. Probably gonna try heroine instead

Well at our "peak" of love we were very excited to grow old together and get married, we were each others everything's. Now she hangs out with her friends and I work all day which has sort of driven a wedge between us. Sometimes I can't help but feel like she's found someone else and that's why it feels like she's so uninterested. I want to die with her or without her before I lose her completely. She's everything to me.

 

[dontletthembribeyou]

Definitely not. He has so much going for him.

 

[supremacyofdeath]

Jesus Christ NO! A huge part of my suicidal ideation actually started because of the way he treated me. I felt worthless and that there was nothing in this world for me. I came SO close one time -- he almost got what he wanted. But then he fucked around and pissed me off. Fuck him. (He wishes ... )

I am so sorry to hear. You should be treated like you matter and are loved. But yes! Fuck abusers. May he suffer & may you get everything you wish for

 

[other-ghost]

No!! Not at all. It was my dream for years, for me— it's the ultimate love, i get you so much! but not anymore, or at least not for now.
She has so much future waiting for her, she's a GREAT and ambitious person. So, now, i only wish to be deleted from her life, so she could go on further in her life.

 

[lunar02102009]

My partner and I both struggle with mental health & specifically depression. Lately because of what feels like a lot of stress piling on we both have felt suicidal in some way.
I've began to sort of fantasize in some sort of fucked way of dying with her. She's the love of my life and the only reason I keep fighting on. Lately I can't help but wonder if she wants to go, why don't we both just do it? Though I've brought this up to which she looked at me like I was fucking crazy.
I just think it would be romantic in a way?
To go hand in hand to the great beyond.
I'd try to opt for something a little more peaceful and painless too. Cuddling together as our lungs fill with carbon monoxide or as the SN slowly suffocates us.
Does anyone else ever feel this way? Do you guys wish your partners would support your chase in death and perhaps even join you?

The thing is , if i would get my ex back i would probably lose the desire to ctb , and try to fix everything thats wrong with my life , im not saying getting her back fixes everything but it does give me the motivation to start fixing everything up , but as luck would have it she probably isnt ever gonna talk to me again nor will i find a better partner for me atleast ever in my whole life so jus living and degrading each day ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

 

[BRAINWORMS]

Absolutely not. I wish he could be there holding my hand when I go, but I want him to live a happy life. I feel like I'm holding him back from that.

 

[supremacyofdeath]

The thing is , if i would get my ex back i would probably lose the desire to ctb , and try to fix everything thats wrong with my life , im not saying getting her back fixes everything but it does give me the motivation to start fixing everything up , but as luck would have it she probably isnt ever gonna talk to me again nor will i find a better partner for me atleast ever in my whole life so jus living and degrading each day ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I understand this, before I met my girl I was miserable. I changed everything in my life for the better for her. I quit the hard drugs, I stopped hanging with bad people, I got a job and I started taking therapy and my medication seriously (even if it just wasn't working). If she was completely out of my life I'd be absolutely broken and lost. I used to have nervous breakdowns thinking about all the things that could take her from me.

I'm sorry you lost your other half, and I hope someday you can find peace through a miracle rekindling or in the great beyond

 

[TransTaxEvader]

Absolutely not. She's one of the greatest people in the world and deserves to have a good life. I'm sorry to do what I am doing to her. Is it selfish to stay with her? She's one of the few things that make me happy.

 

[mossrabbit]

I'd want them to organically desire that outcome outside of my own influence. Outside of that, I'd at least want them to be present, albiet selfishly. Sadly, there's just too much risk in involving loved ones. In a perfect world, I'd want someone special with me, whether they're also catching the bus, or not.

 

[bankai]

I'm not currently in a relationship. But yes, I would like a nice woman to cuddle and die with.

 

[frommolecules2stars]

Yes, I would like to ctb with my boyfriend. But he is not suicidal and that is something I would not ask him to do because he does want to live. My reasons being: I don't want to be alone while I die and I do not trust him to not call 911 while I'm passing (he respects my choice, but seeing someone you love die? Who knows what could happen), and the fact that he really relies on me for stability. He has been abused all of his life in almost every way imaginable. He's strong, but I worry that once I am gone that he won't be ok. Plus he knows I plan to ctb and he would have to keep it a secret that he never stopped me.. I feel as if that would rip him apart. That's why I want him to go with me.

I know these are selfish, but I'm not ashamed to have these feelings. I don't find the want or fantasy fucked up tbh, I actually think it's natural to feel this way when you have someone you care deeply about.

 

[Grav]

No. She is the opposite of me in most ways so she should enjoy her life and friends.

 

[encore]

yes, and it was the plan, but things changed and i'm left to ctb on my own

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

No