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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
I give up.
I really need to stop being an open book.
It's pointless and just brings others down.
Those of you that hide how you're doing... how do you do it? How do you fake it?
I seriously need to learn. For my sake and others sake.
I need to build a fortified wall between my emotions and other people.

Forcing a smile is goddamn hard. I don't do fake well.
 
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memataporfavor

memataporfavor

( つ・o・)つ still ill ╮|。>ー<。|╭
Apr 6, 2019
65
Oh, wow
I feel just the way you do... but still I'm uncappable of hiding my feelings and stop oversharing, even tho I've been trying for so long
I even came to kinda accept this as a part of my personnality and got used to it by instead of stopping myself from sharing, just stop caring abt the listenner's opinion. Basically started using everyone around me as a diary... I started acting in a more egocentric way? yes. BUUUT It protected my feelings. I guess it functioned like this fortified wall you (we) need
Still, I would very much rather not be an oversharer so, following the thread to see if I can also get some tips heheh


you're not alone, buddy hah
 
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TheDevilsAngel

LetMeFree (I'll never be free)
Apr 22, 2019
852
I'm having this problem too.. I just can't help myself to keep talking and explaining myself sometimes I try not to talk to anyone (keep in mind I only talk to my mother, neighbour and my nurse's) because every time I do I say too much and feel like crap for days.. I'm so sick of myself I just want to be ok..... I will also be following this thread! Sending you :heart: and:hug: :hug:
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,547
I don't know if it's a good skill or a bad one, but it's just something I've always done. It's much easier with strangers. It seems the closer I am to someone, the less I can hide. My best friend sees right through me.
 
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porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Haha there was one person I tried so hard
That I would tell him: ok I have things I want to share, do you want A B or C?
It wasn't about feelings per se though.
It was cute apparently. I tried.
But when I try to not talk about myself I'm too obvious lol I'm so socially awkward
"Let's just talk about you when we meet"
Apparently that was weird too haha.
Or the classic "I over share. I'm working on it. " just to put people off a bit or make the conversation more awkward.

Or I try the whole, listen with body, try to hyper focus on person... only to get asked why I'm not responding

33 years old ladies and gentlemen. Haha.
 
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