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Alnilam
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- Aug 29, 2022
- 90
I used to be very afraid of what might greet me after death. Lately I've been doing some soul searching and have found that, if there really is an all-knowing being who created us from a place of love, for surely it'll understand me and my reasoning for wanting to return home. They say we chose to come here, I can't imagine why. Though, I suffered more anxiety and fear in preparation for going to school, being forced to slave away for a soul-sucking industry, walking alone at night, being seen and judged by others, having my worth and body measured and objectified than I do ending my own life. People created hell on earth, I do not blame our creator for our misdeeds. Perhaps I chose to come down here to simply experience what it was like--after all, humans love to indulge in their curiosities, no matter how morbid their fixations may be.
I've come to accept my fate, I feel calm, hopeful and peaceful, I can finally enjoy myself. The things and people that have brought me great pain and vice versa seem far away now. I look forward to meeting my maker and plan to ask of it only one wish.. that I can live out my passions and fantasies somewhere safe, pure and beautiful--like a Studio Ghibli movie or Moomin Valley. Preferably with access to games I'll never get to play or see finished--like Bramble and Paralives, probably without the option to interact with the living. I know it's just wishful thinking, but it's still nice to think about, even if it's only an imaginary comfort.
I've come to accept my fate, I feel calm, hopeful and peaceful, I can finally enjoy myself. The things and people that have brought me great pain and vice versa seem far away now. I look forward to meeting my maker and plan to ask of it only one wish.. that I can live out my passions and fantasies somewhere safe, pure and beautiful--like a Studio Ghibli movie or Moomin Valley. Preferably with access to games I'll never get to play or see finished--like Bramble and Paralives, probably without the option to interact with the living. I know it's just wishful thinking, but it's still nice to think about, even if it's only an imaginary comfort.
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