passive suicidal ideation

[emptymiku]

i feel so miserable. i've wasted the good years of my life, i have no friends, no hobbies, nothing to look forward to. the only things i love are my cats, my close family, and project sekai. thats about it. i often fear death but the thought of living like this for another 50 years is scarier

i don't have an active plan for suicide and i don't think i will any time soon, i can't leave my cats behind like this, and i can't go before i tier my favorite sekai event, lol. but i already know how i would do it.

i would hang myself, asphyxiation and not neck breaking. i would listen to my favorite song. imagining it makes me feel relief even though i'm not going to do it. i wish nobody loved me so i could consider it

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Very relatable. It's particularly difficult how one can't really open up to others about this sort of thing, even if it's not "active"