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AndyCurious

AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
Partial is difficult. Takes a lot of willpower to get through the slowly blacking out.
Totally agree there, and bigger risk of failing also...
 
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AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
10mm could be too thin if you are heavy, 20mm could take longer if you are very slim...
Maybe so, but when your hanging, your hanging, and no way out most likely...
 
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Hanger

Hanger

Noosedancer
May 29, 2018
277
That´s true, but if the rope is too thin it could break.. And if it´s too thick you wan´t suffer longer, why should you do that?
 
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AndyCurious

AndyCurious

Warlock
Sep 13, 2018
707
Why a bigger risk in failing
Well, Hanging on have tried 7 times partial hanging, and so many others and failed, so full suspension must be better..
 
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Hanger

Hanger

Noosedancer
May 29, 2018
277
I´ve tried both at partial hanging I stopped the hanging cause it was easy to stop it, when it got uncomfortable. At full suspension I hanged till I passed out, but was saved (unexpected at this place and time I did it)
 
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Shay

Experienced
Aug 31, 2018
277
Well, Hanging on have tried 7 times partial hanging, and so many others and failed, so full suspension must be better..
Got it. I don't think i could do full suspension
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
I´ve tried both at partial hanging I stopped the hanging cause it was easy to stop it, when it got uncomfortable. At full suspension I hanged till I passed out, but was saved (unexpected at this place and time I did it)
That's why I was unsuccessful as well - too easy to stop. I think taking drugs getting drunk strategically (not so out of it that one messes up) would def help next time.
 
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Leo

Leo

Catching flight soon.....bus is too slow
Sep 28, 2018
110
I don't get it. Did she just tie a ligature around her neck and lie down?
I think so. She first
I´ve tried both at partial hanging I stopped the hanging cause it was easy to stop it, when it got uncomfortable. At full suspension I hanged till I passed out, but was saved (unexpected at this place and time I did it)
Who saved you?
 
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Clover_

Clover_

Member
Sep 30, 2018
32
I'm probably just not doing it properly but I've never managed to get partial suspension to work. Sometimes it's been that I've cut off blood going away from the head but not to it so it gets super uncomfortable like my head is going to explode, other times I'll get this uncontrollable urge to swallow and I think doing so must loosened things enough to let blood through momentarily or something because I just don't pass out.
 
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Leo

Leo

Catching flight soon.....bus is too slow
Sep 28, 2018
110
I'm probably just not doing it properly but I've never managed to get partial suspension to work. Sometimes it's been that I've cut off blood going away from the head but not to it so it gets super uncomfortable like my head is going to explode, other times I'll get this uncontrollable urge to swallow and I think doing so must loosened things enough to let blood through momentarily or something because I just don't pass out.

It's really tricky to get correct point in partial. I'm trying since week since so many times. Can't pass.
 
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Clover_

Clover_

Member
Sep 30, 2018
32
It's really tricky to get correct point in partial. I'm trying since week since so many times. Can't pass.
I'm supposed to be good with knots and I still haven't gotten it lol
 
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406blue

Specialist
Sep 7, 2018
379
Yes. It is not exactly rocket science. As long as you have a rope or something that can hold your weight and a sturdy doorknob, of course. The hardest thing is fighting the survival instinct.
i think if i chose this method i would take enough benzos to knock out a horse and get into my chosen position. The survival instinct would be at least reduced if you're rapidly going under from the drugs, no? Perhaps..
 
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Leo

Catching flight soon.....bus is too slow
Sep 28, 2018
110
i think if i chose this method i would take enough benzos to knock out a horse and get into my chosen position. The survival instinct would be at least reduced if you're rapidly going under from the drugs, no? Perhaps..
I never tried benzos. Do they make unconscious quickly?
 
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406blue

Specialist
Sep 7, 2018
379
I never tried benzos. Do they make unconscious quickly?
The more one takes the quicker it is, especially with alcohol. It's not going to happen immediately but my point was about the survival instinct being reduced by them while becoming unconscious from lack of blood flow.
 
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111aaa

111aaa

h82b
Sep 22, 2018
28
Ten minutes later I will go to the garage to hang myself again. Probably this time I will success. Everything is prepared I just have to fight the fear I feel. Not easy. I will try partial with a typical knot position, this time I will pad the rope at the front. Thanks for this site it eased my mind so much to know there are people like me everywhere on this planet. Bye.

12:07 Never so close, my vision blackened my ears was full of hissing and I stood up get off the rope from the hook and collapsed. What a mess. That 8-10 seconds is too much but keep trying I have 2 hours more alone to finish myself. I have a thick hood for padding and this way it didn't hurt so much. So it's possible to happen.
14:07 I have to give it up again. Cold panic in my chest every time when my vision is vanishing, trembling hands and legs, collapsed two times after I cursed myself to get off the rope. Confused and hopeless, I can't live and I'm not strong enough to die. I will end on the streets in shame and much more pain and I can't escape.
It seems partial is more difficult than full suspension but I simply not brave enough to choose the sure way.
I have one more hour and still trying. Closer and closer to faint when hanged and it seems soon I can accept the feeling of lost control.
 
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406blue

Specialist
Sep 7, 2018
379
It's not easy. I have a noose prepared in the bathroom and have practiced positioning, written a letter to my mother and made a will and all that jazz. I've had all the equipment necessary for CO in the back of the car for 2 months. This morning the only thing that got me out of bed was to go in there. Instead i find myself for the umpteenth time drinking whisky and smoking and thinking about the effect it will have on my mother.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
So, I'm planning to do a partial suspension next Thursday. Bought the rope today, learned to make a noose from a YT video.

Tried the method quickly, to get acquainted. However, I apparently fell into that failure mode where my face became all red, I felt the pressure building up, and a lot of pain. Unconsciousness didn't seem anywhere near. I couldn't stand it for long.

Is this a knot positioning issue? I need to watch more videos....
 
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111aaa

111aaa

h82b
Sep 22, 2018
28
Is this a knot positioning issue? I need to watch more videos....
Try 'typical' position, when the knot is behind your neck it works fine. You must really hang from the rope to press the front of your neck upwards. Don't need too much strength. This is the V shape. As they told before you will know when you make it right. Completely different feeling than closing the veins only. I feel instant cold fear in my chest and dizzyness.
 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
Try 'typical' position, when the knot is behind your neck it works fine. You must really hang from the rope to press the front of your neck upwards. As they told before you will know when you make it right. Completely different feeling than closing the veins only.

Thanks. I'll keep this in mind. Practice is key.
 
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Ashtar

Ashtar

I enjoy necrophilia when I am the victim
Sep 26, 2018
53
Her death wasn't pain-free. See her face getting purple. All pressure inside veins of face.

She don't "fight", that are strange... All the times I've tried partial hanging, even in first seconds when u start to get "disgusting" your body try to take out the rope or change the position automaticamente, if I persist, my body will kick, agitated, get seizures... I mean, she just laid and die? Sounds very peaceful
And that's makes me think, I had the impression if I do it lying down I could feel more "comfortable" and act against my instincts
But I never seem to get it lying down, only in other positions!
 
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Ashtar

I enjoy necrophilia when I am the victim
Sep 26, 2018
53
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Ashtar

I enjoy necrophilia when I am the victim
Sep 26, 2018
53
@Thanassis I send u a message on SC
let's do it? together? and stream live if possible
 
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dman12009

Member
Oct 1, 2018
39
I think I'm gonna try partial again tonight. Hopefully it doesn't turn into another failed attempt or my survival instincts kick in. I just want to go out on my terms
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
I think I'm gonna try partial again tonight. Hopefully it doesn't turn into another failed attempt or my survival instincts kick in. I just want to go out on my terms
I wish you the best. It is difficult.
 
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dman12009

Member
Oct 1, 2018
39
I wish you the best. It is difficult.
Maybe I'll do some drinking to help calm my nerves that's what helped the time I was able to pass out
 
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Ashtar

Ashtar

I enjoy necrophilia when I am the victim
Sep 26, 2018
53
Maybe I'll do some drinking to help calm my nerves that's what helped the time I was able to pass out

Alcohol and other downers doesn't help me, it don't kill your survival instinct. But anyway, I hope you succeed.
 
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Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
I think decapitation is almost instant game over, probably a few secondsof a wtf moment but after that it's over. My parents wont appreciate but they know my Dr reamed my azz when he prescribed the goof meds
 
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ThisIsTheEnd

ThisIsTheEnd

Waste of oxygen
Aug 22, 2018
90
I think I'm gonna try partial again tonight. Hopefully it doesn't turn into another failed attempt or my survival instincts kick in. I just want to go out on my terms
Good luck, man.
 
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