Thank you for the kind words. I've had so many of these strange synchronicities that I could write a book.
At the risk of sounding schizophrenic or like a crazy person, I'll refrain from posting most of it, and there were 2 different types of phenomena that I experienced. One was synchronicities, which I would most certainly dismiss as coincidences if they didn't start happening so often, the other was a weird conversation of sorts that I still can't believe happened - I was basically communicating with my wife, which I did not want to believe at the time - I thought I was just talking to myself, however I kept demanding proof that this was real, and I received information about my mother and father before I was even born. I confirmed this with my mother and the information was accurate. My wife didn't even know my mother other than as an acquaintance - and there's absolutely no way either myself or my wife could know this - and it was very personal information - my mother never told anyone - it had to do with something an argument they had when my dad went to Vietnam. Nobody in my family knew anything about this other than my mother and father. That was the final nail in the coffin that convinced me that what was happening was not just a figment of my imagination - unless I'm clairvoyant or something, which I am not. That episode happened one time, shortly after my wife passed. I was desperate, crying like a baby, so it started by me simply talking out loud to her, as if she was in the room with me. This is very difficult to explain, but I received "impressions"? in my head of what happens when we die, etc. I had asked if the communication could take place in my own head, or did I have to keep speaking out loud. The "impression" or answer was that thoughts and emotions are simply energy, and unless someone is adept at clearing their mind, all of the competing thoughts in the head can come across like static on a radio, which makes the energy hard to decipher. By speaking out loud, the energy is more focused and directed.
I'll give you one synchronicity, which was the most recent. A couple weeks before the 1 year anniversary of her passing, I had started reading a book called "The Midnight Library". It's a fiction book about a girl who attempts suicide and finds herself in this afterlife library where all of the books represent other lives she has lived, and she can open them and re experience those lives. On the exact day of the 1 year anniversary, before bed I continued reading. On the very first page that I had started reading, about half way down, the main character, Nora, is in a life where she's a scientist on the South Pole. She is talking to a colleague and out of the blue, the colleague says "Nono". At first I thought it was a typo, however the very next line is Nora saying "Nono?". After that they just move on with the conversation, no explanation or anything is given as to why the colleague blurted out "Nono". Since this is a digital book, I did a search for that word and it only appears in the 2 aforementioned sequences. Nono was my wife's name, which is a highly unusual name, and what are the chances that her name appears there for absolutely no reason (in the story) on the exact day of her 1 year anniversary of passing?
Now, if it had just been that one time, I certainly would dismiss it as a weird coincidence. But when things like that have happened a dozen times, I don't know how else to understand this.
The synchronicities are strange, however it was that "conversation" (I still feel like a weirdo saying that) that really convinced me, as things were explained to me that I would have no way of knowing. Mostly stuff about life, why we are here, etc. To sum it up, because I could literally write a book about it, was that we intimately plan our lives, in a similar way that a programmer makes a video game. We agree to some basic "root assumptions" before we are born, such as the existence of time, or cause and effect, and the fact that we are hyper focused in this physical existence purposely, so it does not spoil the immersion. I was "told" that death is not like turning off a light, you are still you, and actually birth is a much more traumatic experience that death. Birth implies cramming your consciousness in a very limited physical body, and not all souls choose to do this. Consciousness, at heart, is purely creative and always expanding. So death is like being freed from a very confined box, you no longer have all of the limitations that a physical body implies. It's like being able to breathe after holding your breath for a very long time.
I'll stop here, because I could continue forever with this.
