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- Mar 27, 2021
- 37
Though I haven't been officially diagnosed with any mental illness I do have paranoid and obsessive thoughts that have make functioning normally a chore on most days. I am often paranoid that I will die, go to jail, lose all my friends and family etc. and these thoughts are slowly ruining my life. Often I haven't actually done anything to warrant these thoughts but the constant feeling of "what if" is one of the reasons of me wanting to CTB. I'm also generally very sensitive and often have to isolate myself from others since things like a joke, criticism, or just discussing something that I disagree with or makes me uncomfortable just makes hyperfocus on what was said for days if not weeks.I realize that I'm mostly just being unnecessarily sensitive but I feel like my sensitivity alone is enough to warrant me CTBing due to how debilitating it can get.Sometimes I feel like death is the only way to stop myself from worrying so much.