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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,123
Am I the only one imagining what my life would have been like if I had been "normal" ? (I mean, without diseases, without traumas and other huge struggles)
It's like everyday I'm imagining myself in "normal" situations with a partner I don't have, friends I don't have, and experiences I don't do.

It's really tough because I had potential to do nice things, but some people and situations destroyed me. I'm sad for myself. That's why I don't look at me in the mirror.

What the fuck happened to the "2026 me" ?? Sometimes I think : "did all these things really happen to me ? It cannot be true, it's so cruel". When I was a kid and had dreams, I didn't expect to be a millionnaire or something like that, I just wanted simple things. But not all this shit !

God, what went wrong ?


https://www.google.com/search?q=oth...-lenovo-rvo3&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8#
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
280
Am I the only one imagining what my life would have been like if I had been "normal" ? (I mean, without diseases, without traumas and other huge struggles)
It's like everyday I'm imagining myself in "normal" situations with a partner I don't have, friends I don't have, and experiences I don't do.

It's really tough because I had potential to do nice things, but some people and situations destroyed me. I'm sad for myself. That's why I don't look at me in the mirror.

What the fuck happened to the "2026 me" ?? Sometimes I think : "did all these things really happen to me ? It cannot be true, it's so cruel". When I was a kid and had dreams, I didn't expect to be a millionnaire or something like that, I just wanted simple things. But not all this shit !

God, what went wrong ?


https://www.google.com/search?q=oth...-lenovo-rvo3&sourceid=chrome-mobile&ie=UTF-8#
just dont think about those. think about isekai.

its more fun that way. that said it easier said then done. its the same being stuck in the past.
i would lie if i say i didnt had those thought. but end the end of the day the current you and me are stuck in our the current world.
 
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Littlepaws

Littlepaws

Furry Trash
Sep 4, 2021
64
I just finished rewatching the man in the high castle and it got me thinking about this exact thing. If you know how the show ends, that's how I feel 😞
 
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mjolnir

mjolnir

The One Who Falls From the Sky
Nov 15, 2025
176
Sometimes I think about what I would be like if I didn't have depression, how much less painful my childhood and adult life would have been, how much better I would have coped with existence despite the circumstances.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,123
just dont think about those. think about isekai.

its more fun that way. that said it easier said then done. its the same being stuck in the past.
i would lie if i say i didnt had those thought. but end the end of the day the current you and me are stuck in our the current world.
I don't know anything about isekai but I just googled it and it looks interesting, thanks
 
Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
280
I don't know anything about isekai but I just googled it and it looks interesting, thanks
OH NOOO YOU DONT KNOW?!?!??!?!??!?! if you like anime there will be a whole new world opening up to you. the concept is really nice. but once you know it the rest of the isekai anime's getting a bit lame.
 
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unluckysadness

unluckysadness

Enlightened
Jul 9, 2025
1,123
I just finished rewatching the man in the high castle and it got me thinking about this exact thing. If you know how the show ends, that's how I feel 😞
I didn't heard about this show before so thanks for talking about it. If I understand well, it seems tragic in the end :-(
 
3rdworldsadness

3rdworldsadness

Can you ever stop the suffering?
Dec 22, 2024
136
I imagine that my whole identity is different in parallel world it would be like I'm Live in 1st world peaceful country, beautiful, rich, supportive lovely family, loving soulmate partner, good talent,unlimited traveling, generally a good life....:(
 

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