freemefrompain

freemefrompain

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I already am well aware this is most people's least favourite option. But I am completely out of every other option. Tommrow morning is when I'm going to try make my way around the stores and probably buy around 10/11 packets of paracetamol. Anything else that can be shop bought that I can combine with it to increase my chances of success?
 
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Oct 28, 2019
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Recently I overdosed on Tylenol Extra Strength and took about 35ish tablets over the period of twelve hours. I was taken to the hospital where I slowly began to feel like absolute shit (intense brain fog, intense feeling of illness) and there was alot of general pain. They put me on some liver protection IV and I vomitted a lot of yellow bile, but came out of it alive. I was in agony for days and I feel as though it gave me some brain damage. I would NOT recommend this method. I've found out that if it DOES work, the pain is unbearable and takes days or more to die of liver failure. I didn't even come close to liver failure and it was hell. I would not recommend this route. Please choose something less horrible. I know you feel there's no other way but there's alot of methods out there.
 
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Feb 24, 2019
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Hey

I strongly urge you (with all the care and empathy possible !) to reconsider

I took 8 1/2 packets early this year and was told I had less than a week to live. I was in horrific pain. My face swelled up to the point of be being unrecognisable, I turned yellow, I was so weak I could hardly use the toilet myself , I looked like a Simpson and the pain is unbearable. I mean seriously the worst pain I had ever felt (and that's saying something)..'

May I ask why paracetamol? :(
It's a horrible horrible way to die. I used to shrug when people told me that but then I did it, I took them and two days later that was it.ive been I'll ever since for this whole year. It's just simply awful :( i wouldn't wish it upon anybody. Honestly. If you want to see pics of what it did to me feel free to PM me but even the pics don't cut it.. It is hell and long and drawn out and if you are successful you will spend your final days and hours in the hospital.. Even if you didn't intend to go to hospital after, the pain will get so bad you'll be begging them to take it away and they won't be able to.. They will tell you it's too late and you have to stay there in that bed as you die. I'm so sorry I am pro choice but nobody deserves that.. Nobody..

Xx
Recently I overdosed on Tylenol Extra Strength and took about 35ish tablets over the period of twelve hours. I was taken to the hospital where I slowly began to feel like absolute shit (intense brain fog, intense feeling of illness) and there was alot of general pain. They put me on some liver protection IV and I vomitted a lot of yellow bile, but came out of it alive. I was in agony for days and I feel as though it gave me some brain damage. I would NOT recommend this method. I've found out that if it DOES work, the pain is unbearable and takes days or more to die of liver failure. I didn't even come close to liver failure and it was hell. I would not recommend this route. Please choose something less horrible. I know you feel there's no other way but there's alot of methods out there.
It's so true. It's got to be the worst method .... Hand on heart, I really believe Tylenol or paracetamol overdose is just awful. I felt OK day one and two but day three I was begging the ambulance to come get me... The knifing pain. In my liver. The itching, yellow face and eyes. Wow no not even if it was the only method available

op, you don't deserve this suffering caused by this method

Sorry for my rambling
 
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I agree with everyone above. I've seen a lot of people over my career take paracetamol overdoses, none of them have worked. Even if it's staggered, the amount you'd have to take to actually successfully CTB would be a huge amount and even then, it would be so unbearably painful and long. I'd also ask you to please reconsider, it's not worth the suffering.
 
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freemefrompain

freemefrompain

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Aug 5, 2019
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Hey

I strongly urge you (with all the care and empathy possible !) to reconsider

I took 8 1/2 packets early this year and was told I had less than a week to live. I was in horrific pain. My face swelled up to the point of be being unrecognisable, I turned yellow, I was so weak I could hardly use the toilet myself , I looked like a Simpson and the pain is unbearable. I mean seriously the worst pain I had ever felt (and that's saying something)..'

May I ask why paracetamol? :(
It's a horrible horrible way to die. I used to shrug when people told me that but then I did it, I took them and two days later that was it.ive been I'll ever since for this whole year. It's just simply awful :( i wouldn't wish it upon anybody. Honestly. If you want to see pics of what it did to me feel free to PM me but even the pics don't cut it.. It is hell and long and drawn out and if you are successful you will spend your final days and hours in the hospital.. Even if you didn't intend to go to hospital after, the pain will get so bad you'll be begging them to take it away and they won't be able to.. They will tell you it's too late and you have to stay there in that bed as you die. I'm so sorry I am pro choice but nobody deserves that.. Nobody..

Xx
It is the only potentially fatal tablet I can get access too. Back when I was 17 I attempted to overdose on a small cocktail of tablets but didn't take enough, so I already have some idea what the pain is going to be like. But thank you for the lovely advice I really appreciate it
I agree with everyone above. I've seen a lot of people over my career take paracetamol overdoses, none of them have worked. Even if it's staggered, the amount you'd have to take to actually successfully CTB would be a huge amount and even then, it would be so unbearably painful and long. I'd also ask you to please reconsider, it's not worth the suffering.
I am out of any other options
 
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CaptainT

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Nov 1, 2019
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Disposable bbq (less than £5 or $6) in a car or bathroom would be way kinder, swifter, less painful and easier to get than that paracetamol. I know I'm a big fan of it but if you're like me and you don't want to jump, shoot or hang then something like carbon monoxide would be so much less self-destructive. Not telling you to do it, just saying there are other ways out there than days of excruciating liver damage.
 
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freemefrompain

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Recently I overdosed on Tylenol Extra Strength and took about 35ish tablets over the period of twelve hours. I was taken to the hospital where I slowly began to feel like absolute shit (intense brain fog, intense feeling of illness) and there was alot of general pain. They put me on some liver protection IV and I vomitted a lot of yellow bile, but came out of it alive. I was in agony for days and I feel as though it gave me some brain damage. I would NOT recommend this method. I've found out that if it DOES work, the pain is unbearable and takes days or more to die of liver failure. I didn't even come close to liver failure and it was hell. I would not recommend this route. Please choose something less horrible. I know you feel there's no other way but there's alot of methods out there.
What methods? Jumping, cbt and gas poisoning are all off the cards for me. Some form of tablet od is my only option and it has to be available from the store
 
Bluefish

Bluefish

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Oct 18, 2019
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OD very rarely works. It sounds nice and passive but it's painful and unreliable, especially paracetamol. There are better options. If you cant access them now, dont try anything half assed like paracetamol which will just leave you in agony. You dont deserve it
 
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OD very rarely works. It sounds nice and passive but it's painful and unreliable, especially paracetamol. There are better options. If you cant access them now, dont try anything half assed like paracetamol which will just leave you in agony. You dont deserve it
Believe me, I do deserve it
Nothing in life is easy, not even leaving it. I just wish I was better at 'life'. All the lovely comments saying I don't deserve the pain, I do. I am a young adult yet I have messed up in almost every aspect.I never did put in any effort with my education, I leave jobs after like a week, I sleep around and wonder why no one will fall in love with me; actions like that don't deserve love, that is why. From the moment I wake up I am consumed in thoughts I cannot have a moment of peace it's like a never ending speech in my head. I have had mental health issues (bpd) for as long as I can remember, I have considered suicide countless times. But I have a feeling that I have never felt before that this is truly the right time to go, and it will be beneficial rather than hurtful to people
 
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jgm63

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Impulsive / rushed attempts have a *really* bad track record.
I understand the frustration, but it might be wise to re-think....
The extent of the pain described by Jen0804 sounds horrific, and will be ten times worse than it sounds from her description when you are actually experiencing it for yourself....
Please don't do that to yourself.
You may have done some terrible things (since you said you deserve it ?), but there will other ways to pay back rather than putting yourself through that.
If you have any remaining debts to pay, you can still pay them off in the afterlife.....

Perhaps you might have to delay CTB, while you arrange a better method, although I realise that isn't what you want to hear.....

Unless anyone genuinely knows a feasible method using store bought items ?
 
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Yeah rushed attempts don't work, can say it from personal experience. Even if it feels very difficult to not to act on impulse, you should really think everything through. Since death is your final act, can't you give yourself some time to figure things out?
 
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Meant2Die

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Nov 8, 2019
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Please do more reading about drug overdosing and how modern day sleeping pills (Benzodiazepines) are much safer now in comparison to the old sleeping pills (barbiturates) which they don't even prescribe anymore, that the chance of overdosing is really low. I believe there is a paragraph or 2 about it in the PpH.

But, you aren't even talking about barbiturates or benzos but acetaminophen which is just a mild pain reliever. What you are doing is poisoning yourself and your liver which will cause agony with a very slight chance of death bc when they find you they will just pump your stomach, give you activated charcoal to soak up the drug in your intestines, put you on IVs, etc (however else they save people from this).

I'm so sorry to hear that you have no other options, but this just seems like a lot of physical pain with a very small chance of success.
 
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Believe me, I do deserve it
Nothing in life is easy, not even leaving it. I just wish I was better at 'life'. All the lovely comments saying I don't deserve the pain, I do. I am a young adult yet I have messed up in almost every aspect.I never did put in any effort with my education, I leave jobs after like a week, I sleep around and wonder why no one will fall in love with me; actions like that don't deserve love, that is why. From the moment I wake up I am consumed in thoughts I cannot have a moment of peace it's like a never ending speech in my head. I have had mental health issues (bpd) for as long as I can remember, I have considered suicide countless times. But I have a feeling that I have never felt before that this is truly the right time to go, and it will be beneficial rather than hurtful to people

Everyone does those things, why do you think its bad?
When you are young you are supposed to have sex often and with diffrent people!

I got pregnant at 14, do i deserve weeks of unspeakable pain? No, and not you either!
 
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jgm63

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Oct 28, 2019
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Believe me, I do deserve it
Nothing in life is easy, not even leaving it. I just wish I was better at 'life'. All the lovely comments saying I don't deserve the pain, I do. I am a young adult yet I have messed up in almost every aspect.I never did put in any effort with my education, I leave jobs after like a week, I sleep around and wonder why no one will fall in love with me; actions like that don't deserve love, that is why. From the moment I wake up I am consumed in thoughts I cannot have a moment of peace it's like a never ending speech in my head. I have had mental health issues (bpd) for as long as I can remember, I have considered suicide countless times. But I have a feeling that I have never felt before that this is truly the right time to go, and it will be beneficial rather than hurtful to people
You're nowhere near as bad a person as you seem to think you are.....
If you're sure you want to CTB then that's fine, but don't choose a method that will involve unspeakable pain and that might not even work.
That would be simply insane.
However, if you ignore what is said here, then you may make that happen for yourself.
There are very real consequences for your choices on this matter.
Make a wise decision please, for your own sake.....
 
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Apr 7, 2019
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Hell to the no
I took about 100 paracetamol plus 100 other pills and I was a wreck, my eyes moved from side to side, my heart was beating 170 - 180 beats per minute, I was too weak to move and vomited until there was nothing left in me but stomach acid. Red spots started showing up on my body and I could only drink water for like 2 weeks. And I wasnt even in a really bad way because someone found me passed out on the bridge and they proceeded to take me to the hospital and facefuck me with a 3 cm diameter plastic tube to empty my stomach contents. I can imagine if I wasnt found I would die the worst way imaginable. I read a bit about it, you swell up like a balloon to the point when they need to suck fluid out of your stomach every few hours, you turn yellow, your veins bulge out, you bleed out of your eyes, mouth and nose because blood stops clotting, and when youre lucky after a few days the toxins building up in your failing liver poison you so much you become too confused to be aware of everything. No matter how much painkillers they give you you bolt upward in your bed, screaming in pain. And then you finally die. At least that was the account that I read.
Just no :(
 
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Jean Améry

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Mar 17, 2019
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It's not only a matter of less favoured: it's completely ineffective and could easily result in you ending up suffering even more than you are now.

Do not do this. Research what methods are available to you and pick another if you must. Any sort of over the counter OD is a recepy for disaster.

Talk/write to people here but don't let your emotions lead you down a very dark path. Whatever you may have done or how you evaluate your life: you do not deserve to suffer.
 
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CarefulWithThatAxe

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Nov 7, 2019
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Been there done that trust me it's not the way to go constant vomiting hallucinations extreme stomach pain
I think I've done permanent damage to my stomach after trying that it hasn't been right since.
 
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freemefrompain

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Yeah rushed attempts don't work, can say it from personal experience. Even if it feels very difficult to not to act on impulse, you should really think everything through. Since death is your final act, can't you give yourself some time to figure things out?
I have a short 4 hour shift at my job so have to get up at 5am. I will see how that goes. I have tried to delete social media but I am fairly addicted to it so end up getting it back.
Everyone does those things, why do you think its bad?
When you are young you are supposed to have sex often and with diffrent people!

I got pregnant at 14, do i deserve weeks of unspeakable pain? No, and not you either!
i have bpd, and one of my issues is I sleep around because I want to be loved but I never tell them that due to fear so then watch them leave. I have people who I want in my life but never will be able too again, if that makes any sense
It's not only a matter of less favoured: it's completely ineffective and could easily result in you ending up suffering even more than you are now.

Do not do this. Research what methods are available to you and pick another if you must. Any sort of over the counter OD is a recepy for disaster.

Talk/write to people here but don't let your emotions lead you down a very dark path. Whatever you may have done or how you evaluate your life: you do not deserve to suffer.
I am going to go to work tommrow morning instead of quitting and rushing to the store to buy the tablets. All your comments are appreciated and helped stop my impulsive immediate actions.
Been there done that trust me it's not the way to go constant vomiting hallucinations extreme stomach pain
I think I've done permanent damage to my stomach after trying that it hasn't been right since.
I already do kind of harm my body anyway. I go days without eating any proper meals and when I do it's a pile of junk. I drink alcohol a lot and don't drink water. My body is already a recipe for disaster lmao.
It's not only a matter of less favoured: it's completely ineffective and could easily result in you ending up suffering even more than you are now.

Do not do this. Research what methods are available to you and pick another if you must. Any sort of over the counter OD is a recepy for disaster.

Talk/write to people here but don't let your emotions lead you down a very dark path. Whatever you may have done or how you evaluate your life: you do not deserve to suffer.
I have already thoroughly researched methods I have been ill for a long time now. It's tablets or nothing, but if I take paracetamol and aren't successful and just end up with a physical illness my life will be even more miserable. Your comments are appreciated for helping me think twice
 
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I have a short 4 hour shift at my job so have to get up at 5am. I will see how that goes. I have tried to delete social media but I am fairly addicted to it so end up getting it back.

i have bpd, and one of my issues is I sleep around because I want to be loved but I never tell them that due to fear so then watch them leave. I have people who I want in my life but never will be able too again, if that makes any sense

I am going to go to work tommrow morning instead of quitting and rushing to the store to buy the tablets. All your comments are appreciated and helped stop my impulsive immediate actions.

I already do kind of harm my body anyway. I go days without eating any proper meals and when I do it's a pile of junk. I drink alcohol a lot and don't drink water. My body is already a recipe for disaster lmao.

I have already thoroughly researched methods I have been ill for a long time now. It's tablets or nothing, but if I take paracetamol and aren't successful and just end up with a physical illness my life will be even more miserable. Your comments are appreciated for helping me think twice
Well, if it is going to be tablets, then more research will be needed.....
Why are tablets the only method, b.t.w. ?
If you're going to take time to think it through, then aren't other methods potentially do-able ?
 
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freemefrompain

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Aug 5, 2019
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Well, if it is going to be tablets, then more research will be needed.....
Why are tablets the only method, b.t.w. ?
If you're going to take time to think it through, then aren't other methods potentially do-able ?
All the other methods make me feel very uneasy.
 
GreyMonkey

GreyMonkey

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Aug 20, 2019
277
All the other methods make me feel very uneasy.

Where are you located? Do you live with parents? Is there financial support to get some real help? Is there any part of you that truly wants to try get better?
 
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CarefulWithThatAxe

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Nov 7, 2019
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I already do kind of harm my body anyway. I go days without eating any proper meals and when I do it's a pile of junk. I drink alcohol a lot and don't drink water. My body is already a recipe for disaster lmao.



Me too but I won't go down the pill route ever again SI is a real pain in the arse as well.
 
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