briardweller
Dreamer
- Nov 16, 2025
- 6
Sorry if this has already been discussed but I've had my SN for a long while now about a year. It's been sitting in my closet in two ziplock bags and all the research I've done is all over the place. Some people say it's going to hurt really bad but only for like 10-20 minutes if you do it right and some people say it doesn't hurt at all really, just air hunger. At the end of the day if this is the only thing I can do then I will get over it and deal with the pain but I really don't want overbearing suffering as I go. I wouldn't mind a challenge like air hunger, something to meditate on, but I just want the suffering to end. I don't want it to have to be disgusting, dreadful and horrible.
My general plan was to basically make two or three bottles of 25 mg of SN dissolved in powerade, then take one like a shot on an empty stomach. Maybe taking an antiemetic, but I don't think I have access to barbiturates. Even though I have GAD and PTSD, I can't really find any kind of help because I can't really ever seem to get taken seriously or not brushed aside. The psychiatrist office hung up on me last time. I didn't even get to speak yet, so I've just been really uninspired. I don't want to go through the rejection of trying and failing so I'd rather just hurry up. My dream is to have the option to painlessly ctb and just drift off into whatever is next. I think I would actually be euphoric if I knew I never had to fear a painful exit again because I had access to the means to go without it
25 grams meant to say
My general plan was to basically make two or three bottles of 25 mg of SN dissolved in powerade, then take one like a shot on an empty stomach. Maybe taking an antiemetic, but I don't think I have access to barbiturates. Even though I have GAD and PTSD, I can't really find any kind of help because I can't really ever seem to get taken seriously or not brushed aside. The psychiatrist office hung up on me last time. I didn't even get to speak yet, so I've just been really uninspired. I don't want to go through the rejection of trying and failing so I'd rather just hurry up. My dream is to have the option to painlessly ctb and just drift off into whatever is next. I think I would actually be euphoric if I knew I never had to fear a painful exit again because I had access to the means to go without it
25 grams meant to say