HI! You are NEVER EVER alone here. You have everyone, the global family, to love and care for and about you! I REALLY do love and care for/about you, I too am 100% alone, no family or friends, BUT I, same as YOU have everyone here to help! I too have stress related issues and I know it is not fun. BUT I make a cup of tea, try and relax and log on and talk to others here. YOU are a beautiful and loving person, one can tell by the way you wrote your post, and I am 65 years young, I mention this only because of life experience, as far as I 100% believe in YOU and I send you lots of hugs, love, understanding and SUPPORT!! ALSO, WELCOME to Sanctioned Suicide!!! Like I previously mentioned you have the global family to love and help you. This is THE FINEST family on Earth, period! Again, WELCOME!!!!!!! Walter ( yep real first name, 65 years young, gray hair and never phony)