Venting Pain pills

[deadprincess]

i'm saving up pain pills to OD on in a few weeks. this is hard for me because they're the only thing i have that make life bearable. they take away all my emotional and physical pain.

i had 4 pills saved that i stole and i ended up taking them to get high lol. i feel so angry at myself. i got another 1 and now i'm struggling to not take it. this is so difficult lol. i'm thinking i can take this 1 and just steal more when i'm ready to go.

 

[Clover]

Pain pills won't help you CTB

 

[deadprincess]

Pain pills won't help you CTB

if i take enough i won't die?

 

[Clover]

Very unlikely.
I took a massive amount of OxyContin with 500 benzos and alcohol and survived.

 

[deadprincess]

Very unlikely.
I took a massive amount of OxyContin with 500 benzos and alcohol and survived.

oh wow.

my mom took just 3 morphine with some alcohol and almost died. i figured i would copy lol. it didn't look like a bad way to go.
i was planning on either pain pills or heroin to OD on and now idk what i want to do. maybe i can do partial suspension while high on heroin lol.

 

[Clover]

I was in a coma and intensive care with breathing ventilator so it was serious but still survived. I was unconscious for a few days before being found and have no memory of any of it.

 

[deadprincess]

I was in a coma and intensive care with breathing ventilator so it was serious but still survived. I was unconscious for a few days before being found and have no memory of any of it.

that sounds really unpleasant. i'll do some more research. thanks for sharing.

 

[Swisher]

Very unlikely.
I took a massive amount of OxyContin with 500 benzos and alcohol and survived.

I don't know if you're still here but oh God! I have 30 methadone 45 valium a bunch of zonfran amitriptyline clonidine...and maybe mixed together

 

[Swisher]

I was in a coma and intensive care with breathing ventilator so it was serious but still survived. I was unconscious for a few days before being found and have no memory of any of it.

Ooh no! Awful and sorry for that! I'm now scared about my concoction of pills too: they include methadone amitriptyline Valium butalbital clonidine, Zofran; and I'm hoping some amount of them together will work; it must! will you tell me what you think? Would you ever want to try that again? It sounds futile. I decided on a less-is-more approach... starting slowly, using doses I am accustomed to and increasing then by waking myself at different intervals... setting my alarm. I already did this on the 12th but became sick from something else. oh, lucky me. I even planned to have enough left over to disguise any failed attempt. I had great ideas! like a grocery list! Getting into the car - it never starts. surely, I've made that mistake before it was on I Didn't Know It it's new and the engine ran for four hours as we slept upstairs. New car, sigh... can't help you that much but enough if you're sleeping. I began , I noticed I was sleepy and usually I feel good when tired...it doesn't happen often, but I was sick like the flu after barely taking more than I normally do. My next try, I'm hoping I will pass peacefully with nice fresh doses of Zofran. My God, that's awful what you went through and I'm sorry. (I'm also sorry for any typos my phone sucks - just not anywhere near as sorry as I am about your experience).

 

[PatKat]

i'm saving up pain pills to OD on in a few weeks. this is hard for me because they're the only thing i have that make life bearable. they take away all my emotional and physical pain.

i had 4 pills saved that i stole and i ended up taking them to get high lol. i feel so angry at myself. i got another 1 and now i'm struggling to not take it. this is so difficult lol. i'm thinking i can take this 1 and just steal more when i'm ready to go.

Sorry to disappoint you but that will not work.

 

[Swisher]

i'm saving up pain pills to OD on in a few weeks. this is hard for me because they're the only thing i have that make life bearable. they take away all my emotional and physical pain.

i had 4 pills saved that i stole and i ended up taking them to get high lol. i feel so angry at myself. i got another 1 and now i'm struggling to not take it. this is so difficult lol. i'm thinking i can take this 1 and just steal more when i'm ready to go.

Copy/paste from below...keep repling to wrong person SORRY:
Ooh no! Awful and sorry for that! I'm now scared about myconcoction of pills too: they include methadone amitriptylineValium butalbital clonidine, Zofran; and I'm hoping some amount of them together will work; it must! will you tell me whatyou think? Would you ever want to try that again? It sounds futile. I decided on a less-is-more approach... starting slowly, using doses I am accustomed to and increasing then by waking myselfat different intervals... setting my alarm. I already did this on the 12th but became sick from something else. oh, lucky me. I even planned to have enough left over to disguise any failed attempt. I had great ideas! like a grocery list! Getting into the car - it never starts. surely, I've made that mistake before it was on I Didn't Know It it's new and the engine ran for four hours as we slept upstairs. New car, sigh... can't help you that much but enough if you're sleeping. I began , I noticed I was sleepy and usually I feelgood when tired...it doesn'thappen often, but I was sick like the flu after barely taking more than I normally do. My next try, I'm hoping I will pass peacefully with nice fresh doses of Zofran. It's just not a science...without

Sorry to disappoint you but that will not work.

Sorry to disappoint you but that will not work.

Ooh no! Awful and sorry for that! I'm now scared about myconcoction of pills too: they include methadone amitriptylineValium butalbital clonidine, Zofran; and I'm hoping some amount of them together will work; it must! will you tell me whatyou think? Would you ever want to try that again? It sounds futile. I decided on a less-is-moreapproach... starting slowly, using doses I am accustomed to and increasing then by waking myselfat different intervals... setting myalarm. I already did this on the 12th but became sick from something else. oh, lucky me. I even planned to have enough left over to disguise any failed attempt. I had great ideas! like a grocery list! Getting into the car - it never starts. surely, I've made that mistake before it was on I Didn't Know It it's new and the engine ran for four hours as we slept upstairs. New car, sigh... can't help you that much but enough if you're sleeping. I began , I noticed I was sleepy and usually I feelgood when tired...it doesn'thappen often, but I was sick like the flu after barely taking more than I normally do. My next try,I'm hoping I will pass peacefully with nice fresh doses of Zofran. My God, that's awful what youwent through and I'm sorry. (I'm also sorry for any typos my phone sucks - just not anywhere near as sorry as I am about your experience).

 

[Swisher]

Computer geek. You'd think I could cot and paste

 

[PatKat]

Copy/paste from below...keep repling to wrong person SORRY:
Ooh no! Awful and sorry for that! I'm now scared about myconcoction of pills too: they include methadone amitriptylineValium butalbital clonidine, Zofran; and I'm hoping some amount of them together will work; it must! will you tell me whatyou think? Would you ever want to try that again? It sounds futile. I decided on a less-is-more approach... starting slowly, using doses I am accustomed to and increasing then by waking myselfat different intervals... setting my alarm. I already did this on the 12th but became sick from something else. oh, lucky me. I even planned to have enough left over to disguise any failed attempt. I had great ideas! like a grocery list! Getting into the car - it never starts. surely, I've made that mistake before it was on I Didn't Know It it's new and the engine ran for four hours as we slept upstairs. New car, sigh... can't help you that much but enough if you're sleeping. I began , I noticed I was sleepy and usually I feelgood when tired...it doesn'thappen often, but I was sick like the flu after barely taking more than I normally do. My next try, I'm hoping I will pass peacefully with nice fresh doses of Zofran. It's just not a science...without



Ooh no! Awful and sorry for that! I'm now scared about myconcoction of pills too: they include methadone amitriptylineValium butalbital clonidine, Zofran; and I'm hoping some amount of them together will work; it must! will you tell me whatyou think? Would you ever want to try that again? It sounds futile. I decided on a less-is-moreapproach... starting slowly, using doses I am accustomed to and increasing then by waking myselfat different intervals... setting myalarm. I already did this on the 12th but became sick from something else. oh, lucky me. I even planned to have enough left over to disguise any failed attempt. I had great ideas! like a grocery list! Getting into the car - it never starts. surely, I've made that mistake before it was on I Didn't Know It it's new and the engine ran for four hours as we slept upstairs. New car, sigh... can't help you that much but enough if you're sleeping. I began , I noticed I was sleepy and usually I feelgood when tired...it doesn'thappen often, but I was sick like the flu after barely taking more than I normally do. My next try,I'm hoping I will pass peacefully with nice fresh doses of Zofran. My God, that's awful what youwent through and I'm sorry. (I'm also sorry for any typos my phone sucks - just not anywhere near as sorry as I am about your experience).

IDK man medication overdoses are rarely lethal.

http://lostallhope.com/suicide-methods/statistics-most-lethal-methods states 12.3% chance of success. :/

 

[Duqu]

Yeah that's not gonna be enough. I don't know which opioids you have or the dose, but most people get low doses to start with and 3 pills with alcohol ain't gonna do anything.

Look, I have chronic pain and take morphine and dilaudid DAILY. So we're talking 60-90mg IMMEDIATE RELEASE morphine per day (usually 60 in AM, 30 in PM) and 16mg Dilaudid spread out into two doses in the day. Plus two muscle relaxants that I take more than the prescribed dose of.

This doesn't even make me SLEEPY. I have yet to ever get "high" from a painkiller (I've only ever felt "high" from using too much sativa-strain weed, and that just once). So yes, I have a tolerance. But ODing on painkillers is my second choice (SN is my first, got everything already) and you will need A. LOT even without a tolerance. Like, several hundred mg.

 

[Swisher]

I don't take much. I was young to take several, get tired, take all the rest. Is take 30 methadone BUT then 45 valium, butalbital ( who am I kidding. I'll take them all by tomorrow), maybe 7 amitriptyline...it's the clonidine that might dio the trick. I accidentally tim too much as my. Blood pressure dripped so low along with metoprolol slowing my heart, that alone made my breathing sho shallow, I'd suddenly wake up by taking a huge breath. Totally annoying. I wasnt trying to CTB at the time. I really thought the low amounts would keep my body from save me. I also don't with anything and my health sucks...such much so, I nearly died trying to kill myself
serously
???
I had just started taking a few and had a brain hemorrhage ( this could only happen to me). Toss in a few other things.... Zofran
I did suck down a 100 microgram patch left over from 2003...barely potent or me very tolerant

 

[Swisher]

It's mathematically impossible to kill yourself unless you're running into a burning building to save YOUR baby/family member. Doesn't mean I'm not going to do it. If Instinct makes it impossible/boxy instinct. a partner can work or another equation to block our instincts.
I want a partner. Like someone said he/she what gladly pay to put a contract out on his/her life. I think that's brilliant. I would too

https://narinderkw.wordpress.com/20...ce-of-his-life-for-disproving-his-own-theory/

This is the easily understandable result:

https://m.scoop.co.nz/stories/HL0003/S00026/suicide-is-painless-the-craccum-articles.htm

 

[Libido Torpedo]

it's mathematically impossible to catch a fish fam.
reality is infinite, but there are a finite number of fish, which means that you have a literally 0% chance of successfully fishing

 

[Swisher]

it's mathematically impossible to catch a fish fam.
reality is infinite, but there are a finite number of fish, which means that you have a literally 0% chance of successfully fishing

Price also doesn't believe in altruism and yet I know people have done selfless things as you probably have. (btw, I would never kill a fish. Yuck)
I'm also going to CBT. That's why I'm here! I only mean it's hard to overcome instinct and the body's self -preservation. I tried to CBT on the 12th ( calling it a trial but I've continued if I'd gotten good results...and the must bizarre things prevented me from success. If there is an equation for this there is another that I hope allow me to Kill the instinct asst meat temporarily.
I do NOT Like seafood!

 

[Libido Torpedo]

it's not seafood fam it's theoretical physics

 

[Swisher]

It's Math. You ousted in words that's philosophical.
https://narinderkw.wordpress.com/20...ce-of-his-life-for-disproving-his-own-theory/

 

[Swisher]

That's, "posted" & I don't have ottokore it.

 

[Libido Torpedo]

told