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muu

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared
Jul 27, 2025
147
everyone wants a painless death, i think it's normal to want that. i want that. but, especially within the confines of "suicide", it's not really all that possible, is it?

SN isn't crazy peaceful, inert gas is expensive, you can't get N anywhere really. guns are good i guess. you're probably going to feel pain no matter what you choose, because it's kind of part of death. your body shutting down and dying isn't going to feel lovely and it's not going to be enjoyable.

if we're being realistic, no matter what u do, it's gonna be painful. my current plan is hanging and im not scared of the exploding head feeling because im gonna fucking die lol i dont care about a bit of pressure. all that matters is that you have the willpower to go through with it and have it be planned well.

if i'm wrong feel free to correct me, i'm not averse to criticism.
 
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sweetdrowning

sweetdrowning

living ghost
Jan 2, 2026
127
Yeah, I kind of feel this way too. I mean, I've endured a lot of pain in my life, what's a little bit more? I can trick my brain into thinking something else is happening.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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It never should have to be painful and the fact that humans make painless, guaranteed ways to cease existing illegal is such horrific extreme cruelty, the fact that Nembutal isn't accessible is such a terrible crime. All I want is peace from this torturous, painful existence, it truly is the most evil anti-suicide world where humans are left with no other options but to die in agony, there's just so much terrible extreme cruelty in how the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I always suffer so unbearably from how Nembutal is so cruelly denied for me.
 
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Realgar

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Aug 19, 2024
89
My fear with hanging is that if it hurts too much I may abort. My neck already is prone to misalignment, hanging might really cause it to be thrown out really bad. There really are no good options to CTB, but people do it---so I have some hope.
 
Chronical_Suicidal

Chronical_Suicidal

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Dec 9, 2025
57
I think you're correct, suicide isn't something you do without pain - even if the method is peaceful somehow, the panic will inevitably take in. It's more realistic to search for things that can cause the least amount of pain possible, not painless stuff.

About hanging, the exploding head feeling means you're hitting your jugular, not the carotids, which should be the aim for a rapid state of unconsciousness.
 
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muu

If I was gone, If I had just disappeared
Jul 27, 2025
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I think you're correct, suicide isn't something you do without pain - even if the method is peaceful somehow, the panic will inevitably take in. It's more realistic to search for things that can cause the least amount of pain possible, not painless stuff.

About hanging, the exploding head feeling means you're hitting your jugular, not the carotids, which should be the aim for a rapid state of unconsciousness.
thank you for the information! do you have any resources on how to best hit only the carotids and not the jugular? :-) if not, that's fine, no worries.

and i agree, even if there's not pain by definition, panic itself is pain in my eyes. very few people who commit suicide will be completely painless. even if heavily sedated there's always your brain thinking "this is it" which is very scary :-p
 
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Chronical_Suicidal

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Dec 9, 2025
57
thank you for the information! do you have any resources on how to best hit only the carotids and not the jugular? :-) if not, that's fine, no worries.

and i agree, even if there's not pain by definition, panic itself is pain in my eyes. very few people who commit suicide will be completely painless. even if heavily sedated there's always your brain thinking "this is it" which is very scary :-p
For sure, here's a thread discussing about carotids:


And in the thread of hanging people comment a lot that it's hard to hit the carotids:

 
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