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Mthom2

Student
Oct 19, 2020
156
Hi there. It's been a while since I've been on here, mainly due to being unable to access the site. I am glad to have found my way back.

During my absence, I've been basically living in my vehicle. This requires the use of heating and cooling methods. As hard as it has been, I've learned an extremely valuable lesson. All this time, contemplating ctb methods, I've been overthinking it. More than three times, I've nearly died due to CO. Twice from a malfunctioning little buddy heater I was using, and once from a gas generator that I had placed too close to the open vehicle window. Both times, I could feel myself losing consciousness, and actively forced myself to seek fresh air. Obviously, these were accidents, and I was not making attempts. No duct tape to stop air from getting in, etc. However, this goes to show exactly how simple and easy it really is. For years, I have struggled with trying to find the perfect, most painless ,when it's been right under my nose all this time.

All this to say, don't allow your fears to make things more complicated than they really are. For me, life has never been harder or darker. Yet, there is hope, a fresh new hope. I now know that I can end it all, with very little real effort, upon a time of my choosing. All I need is a vehicle and way to produce CO. By the way, neither the heater or generator were near as expensive as most methods I've seen discussed here. I honestly feel lighter now.

Keep it simple!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,735
I understand why you'd feel relieved, I wish you the best.
 
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doneforlife

Mage
Jul 18, 2023
523
Hi there. It's been a while since I've been on here, mainly due to being unable to access the site. I am glad to have found my way back.

During my absence, I've been basically living in my vehicle. This requires the use of heating and cooling methods. As hard as it has been, I've learned an extremely valuable lesson. All this time, contemplating ctb methods, I've been overthinking it. More than three times, I've nearly died due to CO. Twice from a malfunctioning little buddy heater I was using, and once from a gas generator that I had placed too close to the open vehicle window. Both times, I could feel myself losing consciousness, and actively forced myself to seek fresh air. Obviously, these were accidents, and I was not making attempts. No duct tape to stop air from getting in, etc. However, this goes to show exactly how simple and easy it really is. For years, I have struggled with trying to find the perfect, most painless ,when it's been right under my nose all this time.

All this to say, don't allow your fears to make things more complicated than they really are. For me, life has never been harder or darker. Yet, there is hope, a fresh new hope. I now know that I can end it all, with very little real effort, upon a time of my choosing. All I need is a vehicle and way to produce CO. By the way, neither the heater or generator were near as expensive as most methods I've seen discussed here. I honestly feel lighter now.

Keep it simple!
Which gas generator? What's the vehicle?
 
locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
8,994
Can't say much about the little buddy heater, but the thing about the generator is all those noxious fumes that come along with the CO.
 
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AceVendetta7500

Member
Jul 29, 2024
21
Yes, this is a relieving way to look at this. Might even been seen as accidental which would be nice/save some embarrassment for loved ones.
 

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