animetal
a confession, a cadaver
- May 8, 2023
- 91
I feel like ill never genuinely be loved. For the third time in the past three years ive talked to a guy and was very interested in them they ghost me or start being distant and then they suddenly get a girlfriend right after me or go back to their ex. I dont understand what im doing wrong. Am i not worthy or pretty enough i dont get it. I tell myself that those things arent true but i dont understand why this keeps happening to me it hurts so bad. I thought this time would be different we both experienced really similar things that were very specific it was almost scary. I had finally healed after being ghosted from the previous person. We would stay up all night texting too and or calling too. I thought we would end up dating or something i felt we had gotten close. He started not responding to me and seems just distant. He said he was going to be busy for the next ten months because of school and work and that he hasnt been talking to anyone. Liar :/ but hes super active on discord like wtf. I wanted to facetime him but its not evn worth it at tjis point. He apologized for leading me on but i dont understand why he even reached out to me first to begin with. Was it to get me attached and play with my feelings then dip ? I even got him the sweater he wanted because he couldnt go to the concert we were supposed to go together because he worked that day. I guess jts my fault for getting attached to ppl so easily. I know my self worth isnt tied to people or being in a relationship but it genuinely does hurt me and i know im going to be hurt over this for a while . I really did care about this guy :/ little rant
