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autonecrotic

Maggy
May 15, 2026
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ive already posted this once but i didnt get any traction on it so im just going to repost it and hope some people see it.
so, last night i ingested 12 1 mg Xanax bars (Farmas) and drank one beer. i honestly did not think and knew that it probably would not be enough to stop my breathing and as you can guess, i am still here. i dont really have anymore money at this moment so i would have to wait to get more Xanax, but i do have access to a HUGE amount of Gabapentin 300 mg. im wondering if there is any other otc medication that i could take with the Gapapentin and drink myself into oblivion and if that might work, or would it simply cause the unwanted symptoms of vomiting and extreme stomach cramps, etc? or should i maybe just wait to get the 30 xans (would be about a week or two of waiting which is wildly unideal) and combine it with about 3,000+ mg of the gabapentin if that would do it the way i want it to happen better. i basically just want to ingest everything and fall unconscious and go that way. im unsure if it will cause any vomiting which id like to avoid. my main goal here is respiratory failure. let me know any thoughts please!!
 
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DarkFriend.

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May 1, 2022
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From what I read, there are cases of people living through Gabapentin overdoses even taking tens of grams. Obviously if you're popping 30 xanny bars with it then that's a shit ton... and that combo you have, alcohol/xanax/gabapentin can absolutely lead to respiratory failure and death, but like any pill overdose, it's going to be notoriously unreliable.

I advise against using this kind of method, because you're more likely to simply hurt yourself and end up with bodily harm rather than successfully CTB...
 
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ive already posted this once but i didnt get any traction on it so im just going to repost it and hope some people see it.
so, last night i ingested 12 1 mg Xanax bars (Farmas) and drank one beer. i honestly did not think and knew that it probably would not be enough to stop my breathing and as you can guess, i am still here. i dont really have anymore money at this moment so i would have to wait to get more Xanax, but i do have access to a HUGE amount of Gabapentin 300 mg. im wondering if there is any other otc medication that i could take with the Gapapentin and drink myself into oblivion and if that might work, or would it simply cause the unwanted symptoms of vomiting and extreme stomach cramps, etc? or should i maybe just wait to get the 30 xans (would be about a week or two of waiting which is wildly unideal) and combine it with about 3,000+ mg of the gabapentin if that would do it the way i want it to happen better. i basically just want to ingest everything and fall unconscious and go that way. im unsure if it will cause any vomiting which id like to avoid. my main goal here is respiratory failure. let me know any thoughts please!!
I had two accidental overdoses with Xanax. The effects were dizziness, slurred speech, fainting, and altered blood pressure, but nothing more than that. I would alternate between consciousness and unconsciousness. I went to the emergency room, received medication intravenously, and everything was fine. I don't remember the exact dosage I took. But you can have respiratory arrest.
 
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May 17, 2026
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I had two accidental overdoses with Xanax. The effects were dizziness, slurred speech, fainting, and altered blood pressure, but nothing more than that. I would alternate between consciousness and unconsciousness. I went to the emergency room, received medication intravenously, and everything was fine. I don't remember the exact dosage I took. But you can have respiratory arrest.
if i may ask, how many xanax did you take? you say "accidental," but were you trying to ctb?

i'm asking because this is the method i'm considering. i have a prescription for 1mg. i get 90 every month. my next refill is next week, so i'm looking for a bit of information and, i guess, guidance. a lot of the methods i've seen on here seem to take a lot of preparation. i don't want that. i just want to take the pills and be done with it.
 
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This is the way
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Nov 12, 2025
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Respectfully, why? This is a non-method. Why do you have no interest in viable methods?
if i may ask, how many xanax did you take? you say "accidental," but were you trying to ctb?

i'm asking because this is the method i'm considering. i have a prescription for 1mg. i get 90 every month. my next refill is next week, so i'm looking for a bit of information and, i guess, guidance. a lot of the methods i've seen on here seem to take a lot of preparation. i don't want that. i just want to take the pills.

Again, respectfully to you as well… this is a non-method. People use methods that require preparation because those are the methods that work.
 
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Wasted it all.
May 19, 2026
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I guess if you are decently healthy, Xanax and booze only make you go to sleep for awhile, tried it myself and i just passed out for 24hrs+. (Ate 15g of Xanax and drank a whole bottle of whisky)
 
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Maggy
May 15, 2026
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Respectfully, why? This is a non-method. Why do you have no interest in viable methods?


Again, respectfully to you as well… this is a non-method. People use methods that require preparation because those are the methods that work.
the only things ive seen on here as viable methods i have also seen a few threads on people still surviving those attempts and it being extremely fucking awful. i just read how someone survived SN method earlier and that seems to be the one everyone says is the most viable. it was a nightmare to survive it sounded like. i dont want any more pain than already enduring every day. it seems like there is no actual peaceful way to go
 
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Nov 12, 2025
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the only things ive seen on here as viable methods i have also seen a few threads on people still surviving those attempts and it being extremely fucking awful. i just read how someone survived SN method earlier and that seems to be the one everyone says is the most viable. it was a nightmare to survive it sounded like. i dont want any more pain than already enduring every day. it seems like there is no actual peaceful way to go

Ok, I see you're brand new. The best place to start with this site is by reading the 📌stickied 📌threads on the main page of this part of the site. It could be formatted better though, so I'll link the megathread on viable methods below, as someone else already linked the one about how OD's are a non-method. If you read the linked thread, you'll see that SN is not the only viable method, it just happens to be the most popular method on this site at this point in time.

I'm not going to pretend that I think death by SN is an easy death, because I don't. BUT… I saw that post today (it's several years old) and to a new member it might be misleading. That person bought their SN from what is now known to be a bad source. If she had tested her SN with test strips beforehand, it would not have passed the test, and she would have known that the SN was not pure enough to be lethal, and that whole horrible experience could have been avoided. But she thought the blood test was enough. We can learn from that mistake. SN needs to be tested both ways that it gets tested before it's used, and protocol needs to be followed if it's to be expected to work. In every thread I've read about SN failing, either it wasn't tested or protocol was not followed.

Most of us don't want pain. But we don't want to attempt only to wake up in the hospital/psych ward, either. So we choose the method that we find the least objectionable that if done correctly should actually work.

 
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Yuja

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May 6, 2026
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OD's are a non-method

I will second this. It's very important to read through the resources before deciding on something as unreliable as ODing.

This is unrelated to the post so you do not have to answer my question but may i ask for your story and what lead you to post on this forum? Again, no need to answer but just thought I'd ask.
 
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