I just wanted to make one last post on here, as I plan to not visit this site again. I really want to thank you guys for being so supportive, for the first time in a long time, I got some sort of hope wave. And in that, I realised that I can't always explain my pain and I can't make other people get it.
I poured all of the n down the drain, and I believe I'll give life another shot. This time, properly, instead of just existing in my room. I'm going to try to mend the past friendships I've lost - if they cant be, then I'll know I tried. Then try to make new friends. I'll try to mend my health as much as I can, not that everything can be fixed. And as far as bankruptcy goes, idk yet. Uni, idk.
But thank you again for everything.