nowhere123
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- May 8, 2026
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I have a younger brother with autism, he has very limited verbal communication skills. We can barely communicate, and he isn't able to interact with other children his age.
Because of my brother, my father pays very little attention to our family. He occasionally gives us money for living expenses, but other than that, he shows no concern for me, my mother, or my brother.
How I wish I had a normal younger brother and a father who loved us… I'm painful
Strangely enough, it wasn't until I was diagnosed with anxiety at the end of last year that I started worrying about my younger brother and realized just how little my dad cares about us. Now, in addition to my anxiety, I'm also struggling with bouts of depression.
I just want to be an ordinary person. I don't want to carry this burden at all. How wonderful it would be if my brother were normal—or if he weren't intellectually disabled—if my dad loved us, or if I didn't have a brother. Then I could choose to be an ordinary person instead of the "sibling of a child with autism."
I don't expect much from myself—as long as I can get by, that's enough. All my suffering stems from this unfortunate family. I can't see a future for myself; I just want to end it all.
I hope that in my next life, I can be born into a different family—any kind will do.
Because of my brother, my father pays very little attention to our family. He occasionally gives us money for living expenses, but other than that, he shows no concern for me, my mother, or my brother.
How I wish I had a normal younger brother and a father who loved us… I'm painful
Strangely enough, it wasn't until I was diagnosed with anxiety at the end of last year that I started worrying about my younger brother and realized just how little my dad cares about us. Now, in addition to my anxiety, I'm also struggling with bouts of depression.
I just want to be an ordinary person. I don't want to carry this burden at all. How wonderful it would be if my brother were normal—or if he weren't intellectually disabled—if my dad loved us, or if I didn't have a brother. Then I could choose to be an ordinary person instead of the "sibling of a child with autism."
I don't expect much from myself—as long as I can get by, that's enough. All my suffering stems from this unfortunate family. I can't see a future for myself; I just want to end it all.
I hope that in my next life, I can be born into a different family—any kind will do.
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