Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Got caught New Year's Eve preparing to ctb using the CO and tent method.

So now instead of hauling my tent, and Mr. Heater along with the fuel tank, I think I'm just going to go with hanging.

As usual, it's going to be in the woods where I want to ctb. I want it to be peaceful when I go. Now I just have to determine where to go. I'm thinking the Great Smokey Mountains.
 
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Jc40

Jc40

Specialist
Mar 3, 2019
354
Why not try again with CO method, purchase bbqs or something similar? If you're still wanting to try
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Why not try again with CO method, purchase bbqs or something similar? If you're still wanting to try
That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.
 
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21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
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That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.
Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!
I know it's hard bud. But the more I have to live in this hellhole life, the worst it gets.
 
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Jc40

Jc40

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Mar 3, 2019
354
That has been going through my mind as well. It's been a rough few days for me, bouncing back and forth trying to figure out this shit. Maybe I should just go into the woods and stay there. Just like my fucked up life, I can't even suicide right.
I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that
 
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The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
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Jc40

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Mar 3, 2019
354
I think my family would get me sectioned and land is owned but maybe they're excuses. I don't know then. It would be good to go and die out there because I don't have skills to live there. What bout you?
 
MLongshaw

MLongshaw

Student
Aug 5, 2018
129
I think my family would get me sectioned and land is owned but maybe they're excuses. I don't know then. It would be good to go and die out there because I don't have skills to live there. What bout you?
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I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that
I like that idea. When my N arrives I hope to spend my last few days alone in the mountains, can't go wrong with nature
 
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Worndown

Worndown

Visionary
Mar 21, 2019
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Got caught New Year's Eve preparing to ctb using the CO and tent method.

So now instead of hauling my tent, and Mr. Heater along with the fuel tank, I think I'm just going to go with hanging.

As usual, it's going to be in the woods where I want to ctb. I want it to be peaceful when I go. Now I just have to determine where to go. I'm thinking the Great Smokey Mountains.
Simple is best.
Sorry you are there.
 
dandan

dandan

One more attempt on life.
Feb 18, 2019
1,298
hanging and peaceful used in the same context?

I tried the Nitrogen Exit bag method and it was everything but peaceful.

anxiety and SI, and thoughts and emotions kick in.... not even drinking N is peaceful... I did the antiemetic regime but couldnt open the N bottle...
 
John Smith

John Smith

Arcanist
Aug 6, 2018
424
Don't beat yourself up. Suicide's hard, and it sucks. I've failed to hang myself twice now, but I try to look at the bright side: every failed attempt (hopefully) ups my chances of succeeding next time!
full suspension or partial?
 
21Neberg

21Neberg

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2018
1,624
full suspension or partial?
Twice partial. I believe I got close to passing out, but I was too afraid to go on because I didn't know what would come after - if it'd hurt, if i'd get a spams or something, etc.
 
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Volomori83

Haunted by the ghosts of the past
Jul 9, 2018
126
The spasms don't hurt. They feel strange for the second or two you're aware of them. Once you're out you're out, unless the support breaks or you're rescued or something.
 
Purgatory

Purgatory

Oracle
Mar 21, 2018
142
I like the idea of going into Woods and staying there, unfortunately we can't do that
This is the perfect time of year to give it a shot. If you can find somewhere you'd be left alone. Plant a garden in time to harvest and preserve for winter. Such a nice dream! Society won't leave us alone though.
 
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