RickyIsSad
Member
- Oct 11, 2024
- 31
I am in a relationship,
Ultimately I feel he will be fine without me. He rarely speaks to me in any meaningful way that isn't incredibly childish or horny, he doesn't love me… deep down I don't believe he does.
The thing is, I am okay with "traumatizing" him by achieving voluntary freedom, only because I don't believe it will be traumatizing for him at all.
He is 18, he has his whole life ahead of him, he will meet lots of people, and do lots of things, he doesn't need a sad sack like me dragging him down anyway.
Ultimately I feel numb to guilt at this point, I feel like if I wasn't I wouldn't be so ready to go.
Ultimately I hope he finds this post, and knows I truly in my heart love him, but I am very sick, and have been very sick my whole life. I have no future , and am stuck in the past.
I know if our souls are meant to be together , after I achieve voluntary freedom, we will meet again
Ultimately I feel he will be fine without me. He rarely speaks to me in any meaningful way that isn't incredibly childish or horny, he doesn't love me… deep down I don't believe he does.
The thing is, I am okay with "traumatizing" him by achieving voluntary freedom, only because I don't believe it will be traumatizing for him at all.
He is 18, he has his whole life ahead of him, he will meet lots of people, and do lots of things, he doesn't need a sad sack like me dragging him down anyway.
Ultimately I feel numb to guilt at this point, I feel like if I wasn't I wouldn't be so ready to go.
Ultimately I hope he finds this post, and knows I truly in my heart love him, but I am very sick, and have been very sick my whole life. I have no future , and am stuck in the past.
I know if our souls are meant to be together , after I achieve voluntary freedom, we will meet again
