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Mondo

Mondo

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May 11, 2021
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Anyone available for a chat?
 
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degournay

Member
May 19, 2022
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Does anyone have mid-life crisis present ideas to share? I thought it was getting a sports car like a Porsche or Ferrari, but a lot of ppl in my circle seem to prefer Rolexes and other high end Swiss watches. It seems to make sense as Rolexes hold their value while cars inevitably lose value. Maybe it's the economy and inflation, but I have not thought of any such presents for myself despite having the means to choose among the typical items. My interests are surprisingly limited to chocolate and ctb these days.
How about something non-material like a trip or a great meal? Just an idea to consider.
 
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clockface

Member
Jan 28, 2022
12
I know what you mean, I feel soooo tired too apathetic but hello great to meet you
I'm 70, physically in great shape, no serious medical conditions, but I'm just worn out. I've done my time, I've paid my dues. Isn't my time to just lay down?
I'm 70, in good physical shape with no major medical issues, but I'm just tired, worn out and have nothing left to offer. I've done my time, paid my dues and I should have the option to painlessly and easily CTB. I've noticed that chloroform is relatively easy to produce. SN sounds like it would be unpleasant with the vomiting, rapid heart rate, headache etc. Is using chloroform before SN possible.
 
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BBBB

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Jan 13, 2023
167
I really wish there was a separate chat group for those 50+ .
 
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BBBB

Member
Jan 13, 2023
167
Feel free to PM me if you'd like to chat. I don't have the emotional energy to type a lot so I understand if you don't either. Even just a "Hi" is fine.
 
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Mia11

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Sep 22, 2022
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Does anyone live near Utah?
I'm in Utah in Utah County and in my 50ies. Your post is from September and now you may feel better -which I hope- and may not visit the site anymore.
 
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ExistHarm

Experienced
Mar 12, 2023
215
not old but i would like to join. thanks.
 
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NeverEnding

NeverEnding

Member
Mar 11, 2023
17
57 in a few months, in England. Life is constantly throwing curveballs at me and I'm now just too tired to deal. I'm too much of a coward to get to CTB atm so pondering my options and just hoping to go in my sleep soon (already on BP meds etc). Happy to chat with anyone.
 
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nonialabaster

nonialabaster

Experienced
Jan 4, 2023
263
57 in a few months, in England. Life is constantly throwing curveballs at me and I'm now just too tired to deal. I'm too much of a coward to get to CTB atm so pondering my options and just hoping to go in my sleep soon (already on BP meds etc). Happy to chat with anyone.
I'm 53, live in Texas and lost my husband last April. He was only 50 and we were married 25 years. I've been aimless ever since. Open to chat with people around my age. Welcome to the site. People are generally kind here.
 
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downndone2

Living in misery
Jan 23, 2022
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I'm 45 but would love to join, chat
 
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Black Sheep One

Black Sheep One

Member
Mar 4, 2023
90
I am 55 in the USA. Just checking out the bus station ticket office. It seems like the goverment is making tickets hard to get. I just want a couple in case I need go go that route.
 
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outrider567

Visionary
Apr 5, 2022
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I'm 53, live in Texas and lost my husband last April. He was only 50 and we were married 25 years. I've been aimless ever since. Open to chat with people around my age. Welcome to the site. People are generally kind here.
I feel your loss thru mine also, which is why I'm here
 
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nonialabaster

nonialabaster

Experienced
Jan 4, 2023
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I am 55 in the USA. Just checking out the bus station ticket office. It seems like the goverment is making tickets hard to get. I just want a couple in case I need go go that route.
I'm kicking myself for not getting a firearm when I still had the money to. Living in Texas, they're easy to procure. My 81-year-old dad has a whole armory of them, used for deer-hunting and protection. A few months ago, before I became as despondent as I am now, he was going to give me one of his shotguns, since I live alone now. That racking sound is terrifying and will scare most people away.
I haven't shot a gun since I was a child, though, and Dad became suspicious of my intentions. Now I can't afford one and have decided on SN, which I'll order tomorrow. I have to sell Mark's guitars and musical equipment first, but I don't play any instruments and might as well get what I can for them. I so wish N was still available, but I can't even get phenobarbital from my doctor, and I have epilepsy! My doctors won't prescribe any benzos, either, and I have no history of any kind of substance abuse. They're too afraid of losing their licenses.
I feel your loss thru mine also, which is why I'm here
I'm so sorry for you. It's the worst.
 
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nonialabaster

nonialabaster

Experienced
Jan 4, 2023
263
many. long island here.

really sort of sickening even the state of fucking dying in this country
Interesting story: I was adopted at three days old. My birth-mother found me through a search service when I was 20, and from there, I met her, and later my birth-father. He was a physician, doing Emergency Medicine, at that time. He later became a Pain-Management doc, practicing in my city. We saw each other frequently and he'd prescribe me Valium, which greatly helped my anxiety and allowed me to work in my very stressful job (I was a copy editor for an alt-weekly).

Fast forward about 10 years: He had to give up the pain-management practice because he'd been called before the Texas Medical Board too many times for inadequate charting and over-prescribing. He switched to Internal Medicine, but still did pain-management. He was known for spending a lot of time with his patients and was not shy about prescribing meds. This came back to haunt him about three years ago.

A family member of one of his patients, pissed that Greg was prescribing her OxyContin, tipped off the DEA, who raided his home and office and found a boatload of drugs. Greg was an addict, himself, by this time. He was facing heavy, heavy time. He was stripped of his license, the Feds seized about 3 million bucks from him, and he was still facing around 20 years. He hanged himself in his backyard shed in October 2020. I didn't hear about it for a year.

I know he did wrong. But I also know that he was good to his patients and helped so many of them with chronic pain and anxiety. Fear of legal ramifications has caused most doctors, especially in my area, to just not prescribe anything that could benefit their patients. Shit, my husband died of cancer last April, and the last time he was in the hospital, two days before he died, they wouldn't even give him anything but hydrocodone for the pain. They didn't want him to get addicted! He had terminal cancer, assholes! It wasn't until the hospice nurse came to our house after he was discharged that he got liquid Morphine and Methadone. And I was basically told, "Give him as much Morphine as he wants. If you run out, we will have some delivered to you right away."
 
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freedompass

freedompass

Warlock
Jan 27, 2021
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I'm 61, U.K., disengaged and tired of life. Pretty much feel like I'm doing time. Been knocking around this forum (mostly lurking) since the subreddit days…I do enjoy a good chat tho, drop me a line anytime.
 
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nopointinlife

Student
Mar 11, 2022
111
I'm 61, U.K., disengaged and tired of life. Pretty much feel like I'm doing time. Been knocking around this forum (mostly lurking) since the subreddit days…I do enjoy a good chat tho, drop me a line anytime.
I'll be your age in a decade. How were your 50's?
 
deadmanwalking1990

deadmanwalking1990

Student
Nov 16, 2025
129
I am 66 years old…I live in southern Europe…I have 4 patches of 100mcg of fentanyl and 1kg of food grade SN that I don't know if it will work…I have ordered pharmaceutical grade SN.. .it has been accepted a week ago but not sent... With the fent contained in the 4 patches it would be more than enough... If I could extract it with methanol... According to the guide, I have impregnated all the content after the extraction on an absorbent support under the tongue. Along with a good amount of Xanax and other benzos... But I still have many doubts... About the two methods and I don't want to fail... I will do it when I am more sure of success. ...... I'll just leave you a note... Neither wakes nor masses nor funerals nor acts of pain.... Only transfer from the autopsy room. to the crematorium of my city.... Nothing or nobody else is present that is not required by the legislation..... .....I have read guides on extraction of Fent... If someone could help me... ?? .. It may also be possible to find more Fent... I don't know... I think it's the best method, but I can't iv. Greetings to all
Greeting good sir from eastern europe,did you ever try them F patches if i can ask
 

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