oh my fucnkng god I wish I could just disappear without anyone noticing

[happy2die]

I hate EVERYTHING about myself I don't want to be remembered I just wanna say fuck you to eveyrone and then just disappear. I fucking hate SI. I'm constantly thinking thank god that this is going to be over soon but then in the same breath panic that I'll be dead in less than a week. Jesus fucking vhrist. why can't I just send a note to everyone saying that I'm cutting them off and then just kms instead??? why do the police have to ruin everything. is there a way to ask the police to destroy all of my electronics?? I don't want my parents going through my shit. I've never had privacy in my fucnkng life at least let me have it now

 

[cakedog]

i'm on a similar boat
you can encrypt your disk or whatever device you're worried that they may look over
i think the police is required by law to investigate suicides so i don't think they can destroy your electronics

 

[Terrible_Life]

I hate EVERYTHING about myself I don't want to be remembered I just wanna say fuck you to eveyrone and then just disappear. I fucking hate SI. I'm constantly thinking thank god that this is going to be over soon but then in the same breath panic that I'll be dead in less than a week. Jesus fucking vhrist. why can't I just send a note to everyone saying that I'm cutting them off and then just kms instead??? why do the police have to ruin everything. is there a way to ask the police to destroy all of my electronics?? I don't want my parents going through my shit. I've never had privacy in my fucnkng life at least let me have it now

I am in an equal position everything for my suicide is prepared all i need is a Friday because on Fridays our home is empty for 3.5 h so i can kill myself finally but yes si is the biggest shit. I tried neutralizing it by rational explanation to myself that it'll only get worse if I don't ctb. That all my other options would led to a sad humiliating life not worth being lived that i suffered so much and still do every new fucking day.
Now I told myself enough inner debate if I don't kill myself led by logic than i'll force myself knowing deep down it has to be done and it is a liberation an eternal freedom. My life was a nightmare and i had nothing and i must accept that there won't come an angel or an ufo with aliens in it taking me with them and healing me with special power they have all nonsense no wonder will happen it will all just get worse in my case i have lost