For the first time in months I felt a sense of feeling good. Just got off the phone with a gun dealer and they have what I would need, and within my budget. I'm actually excited. It's going to be insanely difficult to pull off given I'll be at home and my parents will want to know where I am, but it just might be. I've been in a facility for a while and knowing I might be able to have a window where I can end it is giving me hope. I just have to figure out the logistics and such.
I've been suffering horribly for so long and I might finally be able to end it and even though I'm terrified I'm optimistic because this is unethical what I'm dealing with. Anyone else get a sense of happiness when their methods start to seem more attainable?
I've been suffering horribly for so long and I might finally be able to end it and even though I'm terrified I'm optimistic because this is unethical what I'm dealing with. Anyone else get a sense of happiness when their methods start to seem more attainable?
