The Mute Viking
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- Oct 10, 2018
- 205
Greetings, komrades.
Funny how things end up, isn't it?
One moment we are nothing, than all at once we are here.
An amalgamated ball of thoughts, flesh and feeling.
Forced to live a life that isn't fair and wrought with suffering and strife.
So as some of you know, my last attempt ended up destroying what little I had left.
I wont' go to much in details, you guys can talk about it when I'm gone. [Hopefully, Goddess Hel willling]
Losing what I held most dear and what had kept me afloat all these years was too much for me to bear.
I've written my letter already [And boy, is it lengthy.] and joined it with my will.
Of course willing everything I have and saved up, for my kid.
Because as a good mother should, they should wish for the happiness and longievity of their only son.
Yet, part of me, the darker aspect of me.
Wishes I could take him with me.
I suppose I'll just have to wait on the other side [if there is one, because part of me still wishes for it.]
I won't post the letter, obviously.
Due to the sensitive nature of the document.
But I do hope that all whom read it are able to get a better sense of clarity about everything.
So as I turn my head towards the sun that refuses to show on this chilling morning.
I can see the twinkle of moonlight shimmer across the land that I had spent my life adoring and wishing I had connected with.
October was always the best month for ushering in the cold embrace of winter wasn't it?
The world slowly dies around you, wilting into shades of golden amber and crimson.
The last burst of life before the slow, somber decay into the grey barreness of winter.
At this moment, I feel the rapid hearbeat of my life give one final crescendo of colour.
And with it, I'll paint the world around me in all the hues I know best.
And in those hues, I will illustrate a pathway that will lead me to that final end.
But before I finish this first post, I want to thank all those who bothered to reach out to me.
You guys are are wondeful [The Chat community.] and have done your best to fight ahead alongside me.
I wish we could have all had some big meetup, what a sight that would be.
Foogs, Mediation Guide, Nasigoreng, T-bone, Observer, Slothrop, Uncle Donk, Sans, Amumu, wateryeyes, MG_39, timetosleep, Persephone, AME, nopointofliving, Dead Meat, those I missed and reacted on my wall.
So the plan is for October 29th - 1st of November.
We'll be staying for at least three days and hopefully will have a streaming plan setup.
This will be dependant on having a secure space and network to livestream from without fear of being doxxed and found.
I'll post the schedhule as the time gets nearer and things start to finalize.
Finalizing renting the cabin, traveling, meeting up with best mate across country, shopping for the week and rounding up all the supplies and droogs for the week.
We have a plethora of drugs, [2gs Ketamine, 60 pills of 60mg Phenobarbital, 95ml of GHB, 60mg of Xanax, 50mg of Etizolam, Booze, Kratom].
When we acquire the rest of the supplies [Exit bag, noose rope, ratchet rope, sharp objects (Either scalpels or knives or something similiar)],
We will have plenty of means to finish the task of ending our suffering once and for all.
Since it will be very secluded and in the woods, it will be VERY unlikely we'll be found for awhile.
So I will probably set up some sort of bot to post here in a week if possible to let you all know that I have passed from this world.
This will be mainly for those who will not be actively watching the daily stream that hopefully we will be able to provide to you all.
|Stops and thinks for a moment|
I guess that's it for now, komrades.
Until next time.
-T̼̼̖̾͟͞h̨͚͚͖ͯ̒̄͗͞ḛ̡̰̳͓̥ͬ͋ͪͧ M͚͚̻͂̇͜͟͟ụ̴̴̾̀͟͡t͖͖̠̬͛ḛ̡̰̳͓̥ͬ͋ͪͧ V̵̡͔͔͔̭̾̀̂̑͞i̧̻̻͉̜͑ͪ̾͟k̼̼̞̦̞̼̔i̧̻̻͉̜͑ͪ̾͟n̫̫̘̗͕̲̲̎ͥg̬̬̱ͩ͋͟͟
Funny how things end up, isn't it?
One moment we are nothing, than all at once we are here.
An amalgamated ball of thoughts, flesh and feeling.
Forced to live a life that isn't fair and wrought with suffering and strife.
So as some of you know, my last attempt ended up destroying what little I had left.
I wont' go to much in details, you guys can talk about it when I'm gone. [Hopefully, Goddess Hel willling]
Losing what I held most dear and what had kept me afloat all these years was too much for me to bear.
I've written my letter already [And boy, is it lengthy.] and joined it with my will.
Of course willing everything I have and saved up, for my kid.
Because as a good mother should, they should wish for the happiness and longievity of their only son.
Yet, part of me, the darker aspect of me.
Wishes I could take him with me.
I suppose I'll just have to wait on the other side [if there is one, because part of me still wishes for it.]
I won't post the letter, obviously.
Due to the sensitive nature of the document.
But I do hope that all whom read it are able to get a better sense of clarity about everything.
So as I turn my head towards the sun that refuses to show on this chilling morning.
I can see the twinkle of moonlight shimmer across the land that I had spent my life adoring and wishing I had connected with.
October was always the best month for ushering in the cold embrace of winter wasn't it?
The world slowly dies around you, wilting into shades of golden amber and crimson.
The last burst of life before the slow, somber decay into the grey barreness of winter.
At this moment, I feel the rapid hearbeat of my life give one final crescendo of colour.
And with it, I'll paint the world around me in all the hues I know best.
And in those hues, I will illustrate a pathway that will lead me to that final end.
But before I finish this first post, I want to thank all those who bothered to reach out to me.
You guys are are wondeful [The Chat community.] and have done your best to fight ahead alongside me.
I wish we could have all had some big meetup, what a sight that would be.
Foogs, Mediation Guide, Nasigoreng, T-bone, Observer, Slothrop, Uncle Donk, Sans, Amumu, wateryeyes, MG_39, timetosleep, Persephone, AME, nopointofliving, Dead Meat, those I missed and reacted on my wall.
So the plan is for October 29th - 1st of November.
We'll be staying for at least three days and hopefully will have a streaming plan setup.
This will be dependant on having a secure space and network to livestream from without fear of being doxxed and found.
I'll post the schedhule as the time gets nearer and things start to finalize.
Finalizing renting the cabin, traveling, meeting up with best mate across country, shopping for the week and rounding up all the supplies and droogs for the week.
We have a plethora of drugs, [2gs Ketamine, 60 pills of 60mg Phenobarbital, 95ml of GHB, 60mg of Xanax, 50mg of Etizolam, Booze, Kratom].
When we acquire the rest of the supplies [Exit bag, noose rope, ratchet rope, sharp objects (Either scalpels or knives or something similiar)],
We will have plenty of means to finish the task of ending our suffering once and for all.
Since it will be very secluded and in the woods, it will be VERY unlikely we'll be found for awhile.
So I will probably set up some sort of bot to post here in a week if possible to let you all know that I have passed from this world.
This will be mainly for those who will not be actively watching the daily stream that hopefully we will be able to provide to you all.
|Stops and thinks for a moment|
I guess that's it for now, komrades.
Until next time.
-T̼̼̖̾͟͞h̨͚͚͖ͯ̒̄͗͞ḛ̡̰̳͓̥ͬ͋ͪͧ M͚͚̻͂̇͜͟͟ụ̴̴̾̀͟͡t͖͖̠̬͛ḛ̡̰̳͓̥ͬ͋ͪͧ V̵̡͔͔͔̭̾̀̂̑͞i̧̻̻͉̜͑ͪ̾͟k̼̼̞̦̞̼̔i̧̻̻͉̜͑ͪ̾͟n̫̫̘̗͕̲̲̎ͥg̬̬̱ͩ͋͟͟
"We are but cosmic dust motes held down in place in an infinite black abyss of emptiness."
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