NYE blues

[Xta4Love]

(English is not my first language)

Im having a hard time this NYE. 2021 was a horrible year for me. I am not able to live in my appartment anymore. The place is a trigger.

I lost my cat, she died. Took a dog, was not able to properly take care of the doggie so my neighbour pressured me into giving her up to him. And now he treats me awfully.

I have severe depression and anxiety and borderline and avoidant personality disorder. My depression and anxiety caused me to be unable to take care of myself

I Spend months going from one friend to another. Because I cant stay in my appartment. And I couldnt take care of myself. Now Im institutionalised. Its not a clinic but a phase house where you can temporarily stay if you have psychiatric health issues.

I had a job but I'm losing it because i have been sick over two years due to depression.

My father had to move into a care centre this year. The house I grew up in is sold.

There is nothing but pain and loss in 2021

I see no future for myself except death. I have no hope of recovering from all this pain. That makes me very sad. And there is no one I can talk about it.

Now we are celebrating NYE. Im with friends but I cant enjoy it. This will be my last NYE

 

[steviewonder]

'Omg that's a terrible thing to say. Have you spoken to a therapist? '

 

[Xta4Love]

Im meeting a suicide guidance counselor on the 4th. That is a thing that excists but is under great scrutiny. I hope she can tell me more about methods since this website won't allow it anymore.

'Omg that's a terrible thing to say. Have you spoken to a therapist? '

That is sarcasm, right?

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like you have been through a lot. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are in so much pain, we are all human after all, there is only so much we can take. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Chiisai]

(English is not my first language)

Im having a hard time this NYE. 2021 was a horrible year for me. I am not able to live in my appartment anymore. The place is a trigger.

I lost my cat, she died. Took a dog, was not able to properly take care of the doggie so my neighbour pressured me into giving her up to him. And now he treats me awfully.

I have severe depression and anxiety and borderline and avoidant personality disorder. My depression and anxiety caused me to be unable to take care of myself

I Spend months going from one friend to another. Because I cant stay in my appartment. And I couldnt take care of myself. Now Im institutionalised. Its not a clinic but a phase house where you can temporarily stay if you have psychiatric health issues.

I had a job but I'm losing it because i have been sick over two years due to depression.

My father had to move into a care centre this year. The house I grew up in is sold.

There is nothing but pain and loss in 2021

I see no future for myself except death. I have no hope of recovering from all this pain. That makes me very sad. And there is no one I can talk about it.

Now we are celebrating NYE. Im with friends but I cant enjoy it. This will be my last NYE

I feel you. Kinda sad to see others happy and not being able to relate to that happiness at all. Been there and still is. Whatever approach you take towards your peace of mind, I wish you the best of outcomes.