sorararara
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- Feb 12, 2023
- 71
i think things will be over soon. if i have all my estimations correct, i'll be able to ctb before the year ends.
i feel really numb and apathetic. i don't care about anything as much as i used to and all i can think about is how i'll be at peace soon. i get really excited and giddy whenever i think about ctb. i don't get upset about anything because i know nothing matters, i'll be dead soon anyways. i just wish i could speed things up. waiting around is boring, but i don't have the money to do anything fun. i'm just going through life as normal.
i'm a little annoyed at my lack of experiences, but i'm not bothered enough to do anything. i'm dying a virgin, i've never even kissed anyone or had a real romantic relationship. i've never been to an actual party, i've never been on a roller coaster... stupid shit like that, lol. again, i'm not too upset. just thinking about random, pointless things.
i feel really numb and apathetic. i don't care about anything as much as i used to and all i can think about is how i'll be at peace soon. i get really excited and giddy whenever i think about ctb. i don't get upset about anything because i know nothing matters, i'll be dead soon anyways. i just wish i could speed things up. waiting around is boring, but i don't have the money to do anything fun. i'm just going through life as normal.
i'm a little annoyed at my lack of experiences, but i'm not bothered enough to do anything. i'm dying a virgin, i've never even kissed anyone or had a real romantic relationship. i've never been to an actual party, i've never been on a roller coaster... stupid shit like that, lol. again, i'm not too upset. just thinking about random, pointless things.