To start things off, I'll tell you my condition as for right now. My family, who are very toxic and abusive toward me and I've been trying to get away from, are hounding me ever since I ran from home the other day. I don't know how long and if they're going to get the police involved in trying to find me, I wish they didn't and would leave me alone. Right now, I'm staying at my best friend's house.
I'm not trying to find a new life here, just like years ago, all I'm doing is delaying my own death. Where I live, there's no such thing as assisted suicide, although I've thought of donating my organs instead for the people who needed it, it's not an assured death as far as I've seen. I tried asking different social media about how to end yourself painlessly through any means, but I'm met with a large barrage of people thinking that whatever fuck ups I've done, it's not worth dying.
To be perfectly honest, I didn't want to end myself entirely because of all my fuck ups. I've been a burden to people, they've expressed it all even if they were merely throwing their anger at me, people have come and go throughout the years dealing with me, and in the end, I can't stand being a burden and a leech to anyone.
All I ask is an option, to die with dignity or painlessly. I've made up my mind and right now, all I did is either wait for some cancer to grow on me or someone willing to help me. No one have ever helped me do the things I wanted to do, save for my friend whom I'm staying with. But relying on people, while it's the least bit of thing I try to prevent on doing, is something I direly need. Please, I won't ask for much but for someone to help me get an assisted suicide or a way to get one, help me put myself down so that I won't have to be a burden to anyone anymore. I wish to finally feel at peace and ease, not having to worry about tomorrow, sleep forever.
I'm not trying to find a new life here, just like years ago, all I'm doing is delaying my own death. Where I live, there's no such thing as assisted suicide, although I've thought of donating my organs instead for the people who needed it, it's not an assured death as far as I've seen. I tried asking different social media about how to end yourself painlessly through any means, but I'm met with a large barrage of people thinking that whatever fuck ups I've done, it's not worth dying.
To be perfectly honest, I didn't want to end myself entirely because of all my fuck ups. I've been a burden to people, they've expressed it all even if they were merely throwing their anger at me, people have come and go throughout the years dealing with me, and in the end, I can't stand being a burden and a leech to anyone.
All I ask is an option, to die with dignity or painlessly. I've made up my mind and right now, all I did is either wait for some cancer to grow on me or someone willing to help me. No one have ever helped me do the things I wanted to do, save for my friend whom I'm staying with. But relying on people, while it's the least bit of thing I try to prevent on doing, is something I direly need. Please, I won't ask for much but for someone to help me get an assisted suicide or a way to get one, help me put myself down so that I won't have to be a burden to anyone anymore. I wish to finally feel at peace and ease, not having to worry about tomorrow, sleep forever.
