Yeahp. Life is not such a big deal.
Well, if you're a normal person you would probably more than happy with "studying, working as a slave, getting married, having children, keeping working as a slave until you're a sick old grey man/woman and die".
That's not life for me so, I don't think I will be around for many more years. If can't ctb, I will probably lose my mind and end up in a psych ward forever and ever.