Same here... I feel you... Try to search sn guide by stan? I failed partial hanging... Too scated to jump. No gun. I keep surviving death accidents... I'm in agony...
If I lose it and scream from the unbearable pain... Friends, doctors & the police turn against me...
Tortured me... calling me just insane, lying for attention... Scary rude monster... They don't know what assault feel like to say that of someone in pain...
Im forced to die but i don't even die when im killed...
Trembling like small convulsions constantly... Agony... Agony...