nothing to look forward to anymore

[ameliorateme]

its been a while since ive been here, but im ready to give up on life again. ive been struggling a lot lately and today i found out a very big and exciting event i was planning out is going to have to be canceled. it really was the only thing i was looking forward to and it was keeping me alive. but it is not happening anymore and im spiraling.

in october 2022 i tried to ctb using SN, but failed. should i go down the SN route again? has it gotten harder to obtain? it seems like it right? im considering hanging too. please if anyone wants to chat about ctb i have discord. adults only please, im 26.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling tired of suffering in this existence, to me existence really is too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[ameliorateme]

I understand feeling tired of suffering in this existence, to me existence really is too cruel. But anyway I wish you the best.

i have been holding onto the little joys that come and go for too long, life really is cruel and im tired of trying. i worked so hard to try to get better and its not worth it.