Nothing to dull the pain

[Wayfaerer]

Drug tolerances and negative events kicking you when you're already down are driving me insane. I only want something to take the pain away until I can do all that I want to do in life before CTB. What I do take (phenibut & kratom) I've developed a high tolerance for and they are very expensive to boot. I cannot tolerate life at all while I'm not on these so I resulted to daily use over the past year. Are there any other alternatives aside from SSRI's? I mean, even if I got back on them it would be a temporary bridge until CTB but I am unwilling to live my life impotently anymore even if only in the short term before death. I feel like I am trapped within a catch-22 within a catch-22 and so on. I'm just so fucking frustrated that I have nothing left to numb my mind because my life has become unbearable.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Hey, I can really relate except personally for a bit was alcohol for me. I just stopped drinking bc I really didn't see a point in sustaining my life like that??? It felt expensive and unnecessary.

Now that I think about it... Once I have a plan and stuff I won't really care but rn it's all just important and frustrating.

Anyway, I can relate the pain of day to day is too much.

Are you looking for a more sedative or hmm uplifting kinda antidepressant experience? I'm in no way a doctor or anything like that so just be speaking from personal experience/knowledge.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I use benzos to numb myself out (I know it's bad) and I know they are very addictive so I try to take tolerance breaks. Here lately I have been using them more because I simply cannot get thru the day without being numed out. However benzo withdrawal is pure hell, I went thru it recently when I ran out. Really nothing else seems to effect me anymore not even weed.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Hey, I can really relate except personally for a bit was alcohol for me. I just stopped drinking bc I really didn't see a point in sustaining my life like that??? It felt expensive and unnecessary.

Now that I think about it... Once I have a plan and stuff I won't really care but rn it's all just important and frustrating.

Anyway, I can relate the pain of day to day is too much.

Are you looking for a more sedative or hmm uplifting kinda antidepressant experience? I'm in no way a doctor or anything like that so just be speaking from personal experience/knowledge.

I drank so much last summer I never want to drink again. I'm looking for a sedative. I cant smoke weed because I live with parents

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Yeah, the benzos are hell. I'm just getting off them rn myself after like 2 yrs. I understand how they help and such so dw not judging.

Do you have a psychiatrist? Or know of a harm reduction / addiction clinic around you?

Is it ok if i PM?

I drank so much last summer I never want to drink again. I'm looking for a sedative. I cant smoke weed because I live with parents

Are you able to get edibles or oil? While smoking is an awesome experience you can still get a high & its discreet.

Or maybe look into either a vape or vape pens?

& honestly same drank so much this yr it's really just kinda gross now :/ the occasional drink is fine tho.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Yeah, the benzos are hell. I'm just getting off them rn myself after like 2 yrs. I understand how they help and such so dw not judging.

Do you have a psychiatrist? Or know of a harm reduction / addiction clinic around you?

Is it ok if i PM?


Are you able to get edibles or oil? While smoking is an awesome experience you can still get a high & its discreet.

Or maybe look into either a vape or vape pens?

& honestly same drank so much this yr it's really just kinda gross now :/ the occasional drink is fine tho.

Are there devices where I can stuff dry herb into and vape it that way, which will generate no odor? I cannot risk getting caught but I need SOMETHING.

 

[Livingvsdying25]

Are there devices where I can stuff dry herb into and vape it that way, which will generate no odor? I cannot risk getting caught but I need SOMETHING.

Yessss depending on how much you want to spend?

I'm in Canada so but a vape pen (with like let's sayy a gram or so of concentrate in it is: around $70~75.

Or you could get a vape for dry herb. Those can be around $50~300 for a small one. Ik one where you can set it to not have much of a smell. The PAX 3. Around $300 tho.

 

[Sensei]

I've heard that Ashwagandha is similar to kratom. However, I've never used it myself so I won't swear by it. Then there's of course poppy pod tea, if you haven't tried it. It can be very addictive and it's notoriously difficult to dose, so difficult that there have been fatalities. I guess that you don't really care about that, though.