405taker
New Member
- Sep 28, 2022
- 3
Shit just keeps getting worse and worse, days go by so quickly yet so slowly, i feel numb and guilt-ridden. No matter how much i try it doesn't help so i stopped trying which makes it all worse. Funny innit. People keep saying that it'll get better, but really, when? Because i know it won't. This is how ive lived and will probably continue to live. I'm too much of a coward to attempt again, because what if i fail again? I'll have to face that guilt too. I've been praying for a form of quick aggressive cancer to take me. Or going to sleep and not waking up. Or a car crash or a plane crash or a bus crash or something anything to set me from my misery because obviously i can't do shit and the only things that actually matter are things ive no control in. I can't even talk to any of my friends because it'll worry them and then ill have to console them. I'm done. Fuck being alive. Fuck this head of mine.