Venting Not everybody is special

[sonfecibisiklet]

there is no such thing like everbody deserves to live, everybody special bla bla

"it will get better"
well how can you know that?
how can you know that things will get better for me?

there is people that heard this thousand times yet things got worse for them and they couldnt take it any second more of it

it just dont make sense mate
why do human beings still trying to have a child in this fucked up world and humans in it why would anyone want that why dont they think about it atleast a bit why do i have to suffer because of someones fucking stupidity and brainless actions

i dont even know what i want anymore
i just recently found about this website while looking for an easy and peaceful method for suicide and found SN method which i can easily buy from internet in my country but i am still not able to do it man i have someone in my life which i actually give a damn about and i dont know

i cant fight with life
i feel like im such a fuck up and corrupted which maybe i am or not and the worse part is this -> i dont even know

i dont have any significant talent and most of people dont have it too, which is why they are working in jobs they hate with minimum wage

i had some more stuff to write on my mind which i forgot while i was trying to find where do i post

i dont usually write what i have on my mind but i tried to sleep and just cant shut my brain up

if anyone have reads this long ass paragraph about me whining about how hard life is and exc. , thank you for your time and i like to know your thoughts ,which i usually dont like to know in general.

 

[SVEN]

If you're uncertain about what to do, you could do worse than have a look at the Recovery Section, where there are more folk who are either trying to keep going, or aren't sure what their next move is. Though you're very welcome on this or any of the threads. This is a pro-choice group, so no one is going to try to influence you as to your actions or choices.

 

[montanatype]

>why do i have to suffer because of someones fucking stupidity and brainless actions
Well, it doesn't really matter that much if you think about it, the suffering, I think people take things very personally, but nothing really matters, as long as you can ignore things they shouldn't cause you suffering, there are many things imposed in the "living" but they don't really have that much value and then, life has some good things so, if one is in a not so stormy position, I think one should give the "good things in life" a chance, if one is able to find them.

 

[longtheriverrun]

why do human beings still trying to have a child in this fucked up world and humans in it why would anyone want that why dont they think about it atleast a bit why do i have to suffer because of someones fucking stupidity and brainless actions

i dont even know what i want anymore

i cant fight with life
i feel like im such a fuck up and corrupted which maybe i am or not and the worse part is this -> i dont even know

i dont have any significant talent and most of people dont have it too, which is why they are working in jobs they hate with minimum wage

Platitudes like "it'll get better" are, at their best, hollow consolation, and at their worst, complete delusion. I'm a firm believer that the very nature of 'being' is to struggle without resolution—the 'will to live' is a better way to put it. Resignation or any sort of 'aesthetic' escape are, for me, the only two ways to navigate the idea that 'to exist is to suffer.' You suffer not because you have failed, but because you exist. I think that the challenge is to endure all of that suffering without being consumed by the blind impulses and desires that continue to make me suffer, and not just 'overcoming suffering' itself

 

[SchrodingerIsDed]

It doesn't make sense. And it kinda does and it kinda doesn't. It depends on your age, too. Things are typically a lot harder for most people say 13-25, and that's because the brain is still developing. Usually, even if things don't get better, you become more capable of handling the bad things after 25, usually. Sometimes it takes longer. But that's the general pattern. I think that's what people mean. Either that or they use it as a platitude to try and temporarily console, similar to, "No honey that dress doesn't make you look fat."

It's hard to ctb, no doubt. Lots of people have failed over and over again. I certainly have. It's not easy. Don't beat yourself up. It's no coincidence that they find alcohol in a lot of people who ctb's systems. Liquid courage is needed often to bypass the SI, the survival instinct.

No worries. It wasn't too much to read.