WhatDoesTheFoxSay?
Hold your head high, and your middle finger higher
- Dec 25, 2020
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The second day into my first full-time (F&B) job and I'm already struggling. I'm a klutz, scatterbrain, and I make mistakes at every turn. I am withdrawn and find every opportunity to avoid social interaction, a stark contrast to my colleagues who are energetic people people (the plural form of 'people person'?). I make progress at a snail's pace and people my age are holding leadership positions. I just don't think I'll make it in life (*cough* old age *cough*). Oh, and toss in a side of chronic pain. (Sarcasm Alert) Life is worth living, isn't it? I was overly enthusiastic to escape my toxic home environment that I did not consider the repercussions of not thinking in the long-term. I have lead a sheltered life that did nothing to prepare me for harsh reality. My college degree might as well be toilet paper now, since I've already long lost interest in my area of research and what I'm currently doing has got nothing to do with my qualifications. Perhaps by the end of this week I'll submit my resignation letter so as to save me the humiliation of being fired.
I'm considering ctb on my next birthday. Before that I will burn my degree. I will be remembered as the one who took the coward's way out, but none of it will matter. Method will be either hanging or jumping from a height. Given our strict laws, SN, let alone N, is out of the question. As they say, beggars can't be choosers, but hey at least I can take advantage of the fact that there are plenty of high-rise apartments here. My ctb will also be a f*ck you to my narcissistic father who did not respect my decision to forgo celebrating my birthday this year just so that he could upload some photos on social media.
EDIT: This is so far my most impromptu vent on SS.
To Big Brother's watchdogs: come and get me, I dare ya!
I'm considering ctb on my next birthday. Before that I will burn my degree. I will be remembered as the one who took the coward's way out, but none of it will matter. Method will be either hanging or jumping from a height. Given our strict laws, SN, let alone N, is out of the question. As they say, beggars can't be choosers, but hey at least I can take advantage of the fact that there are plenty of high-rise apartments here. My ctb will also be a f*ck you to my narcissistic father who did not respect my decision to forgo celebrating my birthday this year just so that he could upload some photos on social media.
EDIT: This is so far my most impromptu vent on SS.
To Big Brother's watchdogs: come and get me, I dare ya!
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