bumbalumba200
weed never let me down
- May 11, 2023
- 26
howd i manage to get a girl to call herself mine and she still ignores me and lies to me like everyone else always has? how do i make it clear im not in a good state of mind to people and they just dismiss me? how is it that ive come so far and i still feel like swerving my car every time i go driving? every day it sounds a little less crazy to go take a nap on the train tracks. im definitely too pussy to do something like that but its a nice thought. ive had an account on here for years now and this is the only place i feel i can genuinely vent safely and with minimal judgement. im so fucking tired of everything and i dont understand why i cant just be happy or dumb enough to be ignorant to the things that should sadden me. i should have just laid down and died those two or three years ago i attempted. i still never forgot what that one nurse said taunting people like me feeling the destabilizing pain of loneliness. i dont want to hurt my family by not being here anymore but i sure do wish it could happen naturally.
