Andro • Ανδρομέδα
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- Nov 12, 2022
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I've asked my mom about letting me into a rehab program, but it would cost 3-4 times what she makes a month, so the answer is no. I did hold on to that as a chance, a possibility of moving forward, but I'm too poor to get better. It might be time to prepare for the exit, I quite literally have no way of getting better.
I just wish I had a chance in this world. But black, queer, neurodivergent and freaking poor, I had nothing, this place is too hostile, I don't think I can make it even if I want to. I did ask for help, I did talk about it, I am tired of trying to recover - I don't want to commit suicide; die? Sure, I do want to die, but death avoids me, just like happiness does. Suffering, that's all there is, from the start, that was all there was.
I just wish I had a chance in this world. But black, queer, neurodivergent and freaking poor, I had nothing, this place is too hostile, I don't think I can make it even if I want to. I did ask for help, I did talk about it, I am tired of trying to recover - I don't want to commit suicide; die? Sure, I do want to die, but death avoids me, just like happiness does. Suffering, that's all there is, from the start, that was all there was.