No shoulder to cry on.

[NihilusVan]

I fear I might have no close friends or reliant confidents. My friends, my family, they all say that I'm to blame, that I'm weak and lazy. I just wish there was someone whose care, love and acceptance wasn't a petty mercy.

 

[soon4good]

This is probably pretty common nowadays especially because of social media etc. A past with trauma and a negative self-image and similar might make it feel like even the closest people are alien and it's impossible to have a deeper connection with another human. Isolating even when in company, alone even in a crowd. Blame might be from a place of ignorance.