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[Caribbean Sky]

I don't understand why no one is answering the questions I've been putting up there. I'm not asking something absurd, right? I think they're pretty basic questions. (though I have used the search bar to no avail)
Long, long ago in a galaxy far far away, on this forum I was rude and had an attitude, towards people I've seen still use this forum.
I was only rude because I was desperate. Though I shouldn't have been of course, and I really regret it.

now I feel like that behavior is what's causing people not to "comment".
Am I really doomed to figuring out a lot of this stuff on my own because of past behavior? I hope not.
if I thought this was info I could research on my own, I absolutely would. but I don't know anywhere else you can ask about suicide without getting clapped in chains. (That's why fighting Ofcom is so important)

I'm dead set on suicide for awhile now, that's not what this is about. That's why it feels so dramatic...

 

[Pale_Rider]

I can remember being a real jerk when I was desperate. The anger slips through. but you get better with time maybe?

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I skimmed the threads. Maybe people don't know and have no accurate answers (specifically about opioids)? Regarding SN sources and considering what's going on specifically in the UK people are probably very cautious and don't share their sources easily.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

I can remember being a real jerk when I was desperate. The anger slips through. but you get better with time maybe?

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

I skimmed the threads. Maybe people don't know and have no accurate answers (specifically about opioids)? Regarding SN sources and considering what's going on specifically in the UK people are probably very cautious and don't share their sources easily.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

Sorry. meant to say I see other people get answers about SN. And that even my replies on other threads about it, get answers.

 

[Pale_Rider]

I did get better. But no one else is giving me a second chance. The user population of this forum has doomed me to figuring out information I couldn't possibly figure out on my own, and attempting to "operate" without that information may injure me. Sounds dramatic? It's true. People holding grudges could cause physical damage.

About SN? I'm in the US and I've seen other people get answers, my replies on other threads have gotten answers. It's like I stink or something.

About opioids..I guess so. But surely there are other toxicologist/researchers other than Rhizo, right? Really hope my method and possible results do not hinge on his return. that would suck. I feel like I'm the only one who has that problems even with opioids being my method.

Sorry. meant to say I see other people get answers about SN. And that even my replies on other threads about it, get answers.

I feel you pain. Im not sure what to say, other then I love you as human. There is a lot of information here. Ill answer questions if I can for you.

 

[bankai]

I remember you OP.You called me chubby once. I'll never let that slide.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Looking back at your postings that received zero replies, I can tell you, unequivocally, that I didn't reply to any of them because I don't know the answers to any of the questions you put forth, nor have any sound advice to offer. That, and I once saw you whacking your pud and spritzing all over my azaleas, which just made me mad.

 

[bankai]

Opie, don't be mad. I too have made threads which I feel haven't got adequate responses. These threads still exists on tabs that I keep refreshing every 10 seconds till this day.I say keep at it. You will eventually get a response. Please be grateful when that happens.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

Opie, don't be mad. I too have made threads which I feel haven't got adequate responses. These threads still exists on tabs that I keep refreshing every 10 seconds till this day.I say keep at it. You will eventually get a response. Please be grateful when that happens.

so just.. keep posting? How often should I bump it? How often should I repost it?

So the opioid questions.. I mean yeah, they gotta be answered by someone like Rhizo (I'm sure there's more people than him that can answer, but yes, it's a specific kind of person) u know of anybody specifically like that? I hate that the answer to my question, which is really important, hinges on this kind of person answering. I wish I didn't have to bother people.

About SN though - I think my questions are pretty obvious. Unless I phrase them weird.

Pretty much it's just
1. asking for sources that a US person could get.
2 and asking if the effects hurt and if they do, why is it so popular?
and then I think I just saw one person talk about extra supplies and I wondered what those were.
To me, those seem pretty answerable.

And sometimes recently, I can't sense if I'm being brush or rude, so I'm sorry if I come across that way to anybody. Trust me, I don't mean it.

 

[SVEN]

so just.. keep posting? How often should I bump it? How often should I repost it?

So the opioid questions.. I mean yeah, they gotta be answered by someone like Rhizo (I'm sure there's more people than him that can answer, but yes, it's a specific kind of person) u know of anybody specifically like that? I hate that the answer to my question, which is really important, hinges on this kind of person answering. I wish I didn't have to bother people.

About SN though - I think my questions are pretty obvious. Unless I phrase them weird.

Pretty much it's just
1. asking for sources that a US person could get.
2 and asking if the effects hurt and if they do, why is it so popular?
and then I think I just saw one person talk about extra supplies and I wondered what those were.
To me, those seem pretty answerable.

And sometimes recently, I can't sense if I'm being brush or rude, so I'm sorry if I come across that way to anybody. Trust me, I don't mean it.

1) i don't believe the majority of members know where they can safely order SN. The few who do decrease in number as they ctb. The remainder are, I'd imagine, very cautious about communicating any information because of mistrust of posters who ask for the info.
2)The only folk who can truly answer your question accurately are dead. From the anecdotal accounts available it seems to be more discomfort than pain. It seems that feelings of nausea and vomiting can be expected. I expect this method is popular because it's non violent, can be carried out in your own bed and if the required products can be obtained there isn't any great knowledge or expertise needed to be successful.
3) i don't know what "extra supplies" would be, unless it's more of the products to have in reserve if required.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

1) i don't believe the majority of members know where they can safely order SN. The few who do decrease in number as they ctb. The remainder are, I'd imagine, very cautious about communicating any information because of mistrust of posters who ask for the info.
2)The only folk who can truly answer your question accurately are dead. From the anecdotal accounts available it seems to be more discomfort than pain. It seems that feelings of nausea and vomiting can be expected. I expect this method is popular because it's non violent, can be carried out in your own bed and if the required products can be obtained there isn't any great knowledge or expertise needed to be successful.
3) i don't know what "extra supplies" would be, unless it's more of the products to have in reserve if required.

hmm. okay....

Is it possible to take comforting drugs so that you don't experience discomfort? I mean, idk if you'd know that sorry.

I..I hope someone can answer my opioid questions soon..don't know where rhizomorph or the toxicologists went

 

[Forever Sleep]

I think a lot of the time, people don't answer because, they don't know themselves. I find it kind of curious when members get angry about it. Like maybe they think everyone here is a panel of experts and they're witholding the information from them. I suspect a lot of us are here because, we don't know either! If we knew that much, the likelihood is we would have used that information to despatch ourselves already.

With regards to SN sources, I think the main concern at the moment is that the DMC source is possibly compromised or at least, a lot of members are reporting welfare checks. That source seems to be talked about here more than others. So- that may be why in that case. Plus, there's heightened paranoia I suppose about sharing sources when they are being compromised and the site is under scrutiny again. I can understand the frustration though.

 

[Griever]

I try to reply to threads that have no or few answers, but if I don't have answers to certain questions or just don't know what to say, then I can't think of anything better than to answer with ---> <--- and I feel kind of bad about it

 

[Caribbean Sky]

I think a lot of the time, people don't answer because, they don't know themselves. I find it kind of curious when members get angry about it. Like maybe they think everyone here is a panel of experts and they're witholding the information from them. I suspect a lot of us are here because, we don't know either! If we knew that much, the likelihood is we would have used that information to despatch ourselves already.

With regards to SN sources, I think the main concern at the moment is that the DMC source is possibly compromised or at least, a lot of members are reporting welfare checks. That source seems to be talked about here more than others. So- that may be why in that case. Plus, there's heightened paranoia I suppose about sharing sources when they are being compromised and the site is under scrutiny again. I can understand the frustration though.

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

I try to reply to threads that have no or few answers, but if I don't have answers to certain questions or just don't know what to say, then I can't think of anything better than to answer with ---> <--- and I feel kind of bad about it

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

 

[Griever]

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

It's all good, you didn't make me feel bad

 

[cemeteryismyhome]

I do that all the time at home and at work and at church, every day, over and over and it drives me nuts. I ask a question or make an observation or try to make a joke, and all of a sudden WHAM everyone hates me. I think I almost got fired by mistake. I had no idea! It's so frustrating and I never see it coming. Hang in there and keep trying is all I can say? I don't have many answers myself, I mostly make meaningless replies and the next day wonder why I wrote that.

 

[SVEN]

angry? no. not at all. just sad and scared.
I don't think everyone's an expert. But I swear I regularly see other threads get answered.

Yeah the site being under scrutiny...? Do you think that's stopping people qualified (who know the answer) to answer my opioid questions - like the opioid megathread creator - from answering? I hope not. the vomit emoji is because I'm sick with worry. I have sort of a deadline so I hope I can find out soon.
Trust me, if I did not have to bother people on this forum for the answers, I wouldn't! I feel so annoying posting here.

Sorry, I didn't mean to make you feel bad.

No, I don't believe that the perception that the site is being watched has anything to do with you not gaining the information you seek.
I don't believe that detailed info of the sort you want is generally known to most, perhaps all of us.
I also suspect that anyone who does have that specialised type of knowledge would be reluctant to get involved with you as we're all fighting to deal with our own demons and problems and they may well fear that you'd just keep on and on with all types of repeated queries.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

No, I don't believe that the perception that the site is being watched has anything to do with you not gaining the information you seek.
I don't believe that detailed info of the sort you want is generally known to most, perhaps all of us.
I also suspect that anyone who does have that specialised type of knowledge would be reluctant to get involved with you as we're all fighting to deal with our own demons and problems and they may well fear that you'd just keep on and on with all types of repeated queries.

"keep on and on?" So even if that's not true, I'm doomed? I get to "guess" on my own, at risk of injury?

when you say "specialized knowledge" I'm going to assume you mean the opioid stuff. So, "nobody knows"? how did I come to learn that stuff then? I read the opioid megathread.
..which is why I wrote my thread originally as a comment on there. hopefully the creator can tell me (and many others with similar questions)
But I also know Rhizomorph is not a all-knowing god, that there are others with "specialized knowledge"

so I don't know where you're getting this idea from that my questions about opioids are completely unanswerable.
and the opioid megathread writer seems very happy to answer questions..when they're online.
I just feel it's very silly for me to wait around hoping a person like that will pop up and answer my questions. But what can I do?

that's what I'd have to continue doing unless someone tells me otherwise. (I wish they would!)

I also think it's very unfair to leave me unknowing by the ASSUMPTION I will repeat myself zombie-style for no friggin reason when I already have the answer..if what you're saying is true.
I mean, you're welcome to go through my posts or anything else and let me know if I already have the answer to those questions. (wish that was true)
But I don't think I do.

can anyone else verify if what this person is saying is true?
Am I the only person that people "assume" will repeat themselves like a zombie?
yeah, please don't leave me to work out things I couldn't possibly know on my own. That puts me at risk of injury.
is there anyway I can convince these apparently "specialized" experts that I won't repeat myself senselessly and to pretty-please give me their "specialized" info?
I think everyone has demons but nobody has to "get involved"... that's against site rules.

trust me - if I thought I could ask questions about suicide elsewhere without getting welfare checked or worse - I would. I hate the feeling that I'm bothering people on this site..especially when a user tells me directly I am.

 

[Holu]

Tbh, it's a problem that isn't too uncommon with this forum. I personally only really like to interact with low or 0 reply posts since everyone deserves some interaction + I find I get a response back more often.

I've only seen one of your posts, and it was the "wanna get sn before it's illegal". I never clicked it though, since it's not really something I can help with.

Sometimes the best thing you can do is just try again. I'll be sure to look out for your future posts though.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

Tbh, it's a problem that isn't too uncommon with this forum. I personally only really like to interact with low or 0 reply posts since everyone deserves some interaction + I find I get a response back more often.

I've only seen one of your posts, and it was the "wanna get sn before it's illegal". I never clicked it though, since it's not really something I can help with.

Sometimes the best thing you can do is just try again. I'll be sure to look out for your future posts though.

thanks. I hope I haven't given the impression that I repeat myself over and over insanely
so bad that no one wants to answer me like that other person said :)

 

[Holu]

thanks. I hope I haven't given the impression that I repeat myself over and over insanely
so bad that no one wants to answer me like that other person said :)

It's not your fault. In all fairness I've seen two posters who are pretty dubious who keep posting similar things, so it's possible you're getting mixed up with them. The two people in question I genuinely believe are feds or journalists because they are new accounts and keep trying to get a quick method and sources, and luring people into dms then to signal or discord.

People may very well just be staying safe lol, but if it means hurting people who genuinely need help then who knows if it's worthwhile. I'll do my best to keep my eye open for your name though!

 

[Caribbean Sky]

It's not your fault. In all fairness I've seen two posters who are pretty dubious who keep posting similar things, so it's possible you're getting mixed up with them. The two people in question I genuinely believe are feds or journalists because they are new accounts and keep trying to get a quick method and sources, and luring people into dms then to signal or discord.

People may very well just be staying safe lol, but if it means hurting people who genuinely need help then who knows if it's worthwhile. I'll do my best to keep my eye open for your name though!

well, that's stupid. All they have to do is check my account and see it's over a year old.

So, because people aren't bothering to check, I get to attempt stuff idk on my own and risk injury? that's great. Maybe I can drown myself in my hospital cup of water if I likely get injured or fail.

so what, I repost on my questions with a big header at the top saying "DISCLAIMER*** I am not a fed or journalist, just check my account: its over a year old! I'm just a white trash bitch with no education. please comment if you know the answer."

anything else I can do to make people believe I'm not a bad actor? Do I change my username?

edit: man, I'm sure it seemed dubious when I called for an expert; but I have seen hysteria before with inaccurate information and I just don't want to expose myself to accidentally believing that. I am so terribly worried and stressed..

 

[Holu]

well, that's stupid. All they have to do is check my account and see it's over a year old.

So, because people aren't bothering to check, I get to attempt stuff idk on my own and risk injury? that's great. Maybe I can drown myself in my hospital cup of water if I likely get injured or fail.

so what, I repost on my questions with a big header at the top saying "DISCLAIMER*** I am not a fed or journalist, just check my account: its over a year old! I'm just a white trash bitch with no education. please comment if you know the answer."

anything else I can do to make people believe I'm not a bad actor? Do I change my username?

edit: man, I'm sure it seemed dubious when I called for an expert; but I have seen hysteria before with inaccurate information and I just don't want to expose myself to accidentally believing that. I am so terribly worried and stressed..

Nooo, nobody is assuming you are a bad actor off your name. Its moreso posts complaining about nobody giving them sources or responding tend to be new accounts, and since you can't really tell what is a new account or not without actually clicking into the post, people might skim posts like these.

Keep posting as you are. The likely reason for low responses is moreso people are less familiar with opioids or even methods in general. If you are seeking emotional support, you most likely will get responses.. if you are seeking method support, it's going to take a little longer.

But yes, regardless people shouldn't be ignoring posts. Nobody is required to respond, but personally I usually feel bad when I read a post and don't respond.

Hoping for better luck and treatment for you in the future. Im sorry people have been ignoring you :(.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

Nooo, nobody is assuming you are a bad actor off your name. Its moreso posts complaining about nobody giving them sources or responding tend to be new accounts, and since you can't really tell what is a new account or not without actually clicking into the post, people might skim posts like these.

Keep posting as you are. The likely reason for low responses is moreso people are less familiar with opioids or even methods in general. If you are seeking emotional support, you most likely will get responses.. if you are seeking method support, it's going to take a little longer.

But yes, regardless people shouldn't be ignoring posts. Nobody is required to respond, but personally I usually feel bad when I read a post and don't respond.

Hoping for better luck and treatment for you in the future. Im sorry people have been ignoring you :(.

yeah, I'll just put that disclaimer im not a bad actor. actually, I'll put it in the title.

if I get injured, i'll know atp its because of SaSu! hope that changes.

 

[Holu]

yeah, I'll just put that disclaimer im not a bad actor. actually, I'll put it in the title.

if I get injured, i'll know atp its because of SaSu! hope that changes.

DONT DO THAT LMAO. There is no faster way to make it seem like your a bad actor than stating it.

I know it's frustrating to see your post ignored, but just keep trying. Sometimes the reality is as simple as it's just an off hour. You also also fully free to tag me in all of your posts.

 

[Caribbean Sky]

DONT DO THAT LMAO. There is no faster way to make it seem like your a bad actor than stating it.

I know it's frustrating to see your post ignored, but just keep trying. Sometimes the reality is as simple as it's just an off hour. You also also fully free to tag me in all of your posts.

I'd love to tag you. but I don't wanna waste ur time if u can't answer :(