No one talks about what it is like to be here in the shit. When you have no one to turn to, no friends, no family. No one except the random internet denizens that just happen to read these posts I throw out there, hoping to catch someone that cares. I would have never thought I was one of the people that would be here in this shit. I used to think it was something the weak did. But I am either weak now or I have new insight that has change the perspective. Either way, I am here. I wish it wasn't like this. I am sure a lot of you do too. I don't want it to be this way, but that's just the way it is. What is even the point? Why do I keep trying just for the same bullshit to come up and bite me in the ass again? I can't go through this shit again. I need to control it this time.
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SVEN
I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
- Apr 3, 2023
- 2,802
Sometimes seems the shit is constant, just the depth varies.
sevennn
Warlock
- Sep 11, 2024
- 701
James Sunderland
"In my restless dreams, I see that town…"
- Oct 6, 2024
- 67
Yeah, It's can feel brutal, like you're screaming into the void, hoping that someone will hear you, anyone who actually gets it. And you're right, no one really talks about what it's like to be in this, where every attempt to get back up feels like another kick in the teeth. It's not weakness; it's just a lot for one person to handle alone.
It's okay to hate this, to be pissed off at how it all turned out. I hear you when you say you can't go through the same cycle again. But you're here, putting this out into the world, and that means there's still something inside you fighting for control. I don't have answers, but I can sit here in this mess with you. Sometimes, just having one other person around can make it feel a bit less like you're drowning. What's been weighing on you the most right now?
cicatrezESP
in the time of the sixth sun
- Oct 6, 2024
- 66
it feels really helpless, when no matter what you do it feels like a dead end. i'm sorry you're going through this. i also don't have friends or family to turn to, but even if i did, i doubt i could turn to them anyways. wishing you well
Mirrory Me
"More then your eyes can see..."
- Mar 23, 2023
- 1,226
opheliaoveragain
Global Mod | Anorexic Junkie
- Jun 2, 2024
- 2,197
no never. we're all in some kind of shit, yes the depth varies. but you're not alone. it's never weak to ask for help if you want it.
EternalShore
Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
- Jun 9, 2023
- 1,820
I'm very sorry for what brought you to this place~ :( welcome to the hideout of those alone, mistreated, and abandoned by the world~ I wish you the best through what you go through~
SVEN
I Wish I'd Been a Jester Too.
- Apr 3, 2023
- 2,802
Not at all, just an honest recognition that none of us are ever totally self sufficient.
A lot of things. Just stuck in a rut. Currently losing my partner and it is completely out of my control. I've been in this boat so many times and I don't want to try to recover from it again.It can feel like placing words in a sea of lines that constantly move gliding past you only for the next one in line of sight being the most relevant until all attention moves on once it passes.
will only care for a moment that conveniences only to be left again to wallow in my own misery. For what its worth im sorry you found yourself in this state.
I used to think what was the point of me even saying words knowing that no one really could or should do anything so thats why i stopped caring too muchI think a fair few people have felt like this a long time. Perhaps always so, it just kind of becomes their 'normal'. I'm not sure how many would say 'I can't believe this happened to me.' Quite a few of us probably felt like this was inevitable from an early age.
But, I agree. It's sad that so many can't really reach out. I'm sorry for your situation.
James Sunderland
"In my restless dreams, I see that town…"
- Oct 6, 2024
- 67
It's gut-wrenching to feel stuck, especially when you're losing someone important and there's nothing you can do to change it. I hear you when you say you don't want to go through the same cycle of trying to recover again. It feels like you've hit your limit, and that's so damn hard.
You've been through this so many times before, and I can't even imagine how draining that must be. If you feel like letting some of it out, I'm here to listen. No pressure, just offering a space to share if it helps at all.Similar threads
