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life is short, make it shorter
- Mar 3, 2024
- 3
If I could graph my suicidality vs time, the graph would look like a line with both sides 45 degrees from both the axes, and so I'm almost impressed by my linear progress.
I made a pie chart of my emotions, and I realize I don't experience positive emotion most of the time.
The big four things I feel are shame, guilt, fear, and frustration.
It is bizarre to me the overzealous focus the peers surrounding me in my real life toward living. They want to stay alive, wow, and they avoid death like the plague.
Someone said, "This plant(yew) is poisonous, it could even kill you." and then it is strongly advised against anyone eating it.
The people who wish to live, their desire to live seems almost religious.
It sounds weird. Like they are aliens.
I think all the people around me feel just as awful as I do all the time, but they are so much better at concealing their true sentiments.
that's not accurate, a lot of them probably do, but some don't
Take for example the lady on the radio I heard the other day. She laughing, smiling, talking about writing books.
Come on, no one has interests, we pretend to have hobbies so we can have things to speak about. Which I know I'm wrong about, and yet it feels right to believe in it.
I made a pie chart of my emotions, and I realize I don't experience positive emotion most of the time.
The big four things I feel are shame, guilt, fear, and frustration.
It is bizarre to me the overzealous focus the peers surrounding me in my real life toward living. They want to stay alive, wow, and they avoid death like the plague.
Someone said, "This plant(yew) is poisonous, it could even kill you." and then it is strongly advised against anyone eating it.
The people who wish to live, their desire to live seems almost religious.
It sounds weird. Like they are aliens.
I think all the people around me feel just as awful as I do all the time, but they are so much better at concealing their true sentiments.
that's not accurate, a lot of them probably do, but some don't
Take for example the lady on the radio I heard the other day. She laughing, smiling, talking about writing books.
Come on, no one has interests, we pretend to have hobbies so we can have things to speak about. Which I know I'm wrong about, and yet it feels right to believe in it.
