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livingonlytodie

livingonlytodie

love’s not dead
Dec 9, 2024
103
Even when im happy, I'd still rather be dead. Television, Entertainment & Hobbies just can't fill the void I feel. I just want to die.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,006
I really understand, I'd personally always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all that's desirable to me, I have no interest in being burdened with this existence, never existing ever again is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I also just wish to be gone.
 
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livingonlytodie

livingonlytodie

love’s not dead
Dec 9, 2024
103
I really understand, I'd personally always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all that's desirable to me, I have no interest in being burdened with this existence, never existing ever again is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I also just wish to be gone.
It's so good to see you here !!! I always love ur posts lol
 
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Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I agree but sometimes I figure that I hate myself so much so suffering is me hurting myself. It's what i deserve
 
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finalmission

finalmission

Student
Jan 8, 2025
105
I agree with this so much.
I would rather permanent non-existence over any inconvenience or even any future one.

Hopefully i succeed this time.
 
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livingonlytodie

livingonlytodie

love’s not dead
Dec 9, 2024
103
I agree but sometimes I figure that I hate myself so much so suffering is me hurting myself. It's what i deserve
Please don't hate yourself. You didn't ask for any of this.
I agree with this so much.
I would rather permanent non-existence over any inconvenience or even any future one.

Hopefully i succeed this time.
ME TOO!!! Thank fuck it's coming soon.
 
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Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,333
i know 1 micro-second after my brain dies i will cease to exist and never exist again. I would rather not exist and never exist again over any kind of life / existence / consciousness . i want non-existence forever a trillion times over life as a human . to me life as a human or any sentient animal is the most horrific , dangerous , painful , ridiculous , unecessary extreme torture .

just one thing out of many to be a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. another to be 30 trillion monstrous cells. I could write multiple 1000 page books on how bad painful terrible torturous meaningless life is .

think of the most horrible nightmare , the worst pain, the worst torture a human could fall into trapped. non-existence is a good as that nightmare is bad for a human engulfed in that hell. because in non-existence there can be no pain , no suffering , no problems no extreme torture no nightmare .
 
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livingonlytodie

love’s not dead
Dec 9, 2024
103
i know 1 micro-second after my brain dies i will cease to exist and never exist again. I would rather not exist and never exist again over any kind of life / existence / consciousness . i want non-existence forever a trillion times over life as a human . to me life as a human or any sentient animal is the most horrific , dangerous , painful , ridiculous , unecessary extreme torture .

just one thing out of many to be a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. another to be 30 trillion monstrous cells. I could write multiple 1000 page books on how bad painful terrible torturous meaningless life is .

think of the most horrible nightmare , the worst pain, the worst torture a human could fall into trapped. non-existence is a good as that nightmare is bad for a human engulfed in that hell. because in non-existence there can be no pain , no suffering , no problems no extreme torture no nightmare .
This is so true. For me, I feel like death will be healing. But if im honest before I go I want revenge on the people who have made my life a living hell.
This is so true. For me, I feel like death will be healing. But if im honest before I go I want revenge on the people who have made my life a living hell.
I get treated like a punching bag by EVERYONE! If I'm going I will take them ALL out with me. Nobody's having a happy ending if I can help it.
 
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