Venting no hope for people like me

[sharpiemarker]

I don't have hope for anything anymore. I am doing awful I can't even talk about this to anybody. Life is shit and everything just keeps going worse and worse. I feel like there is no hope for people like me. No theraphy, no hospital, no nothing. I would like to think otherwise but its slowly becoming clear theraphy is for people who strictly have problems like low self-esteem, anxiety or shit that is caused simply by their belifes. Not for people like me. I'm even more fucking sad because I actually like my therapist. And hospital is good for absolutely nothing. I give up. Nothing will ever make anything right, I tried changing and of course it didn't fucking work. It doesn't matter what I do, because life will always find a way to come back to bite me. It's my destiny. I'm so dissapointed I'm fucking turning bitter. I don't like anything anymore. It's no use to tell anybody, theyre gonna say it's all my fault as if I haven't done anything to better myself ever. Or maybe I'm lazy, who gives a shit really? This world doesn't want me in it and I don't really want to be here either. Time to end two pathetic decades of pure humiliation. Things I live for begin to quickly get out my path and soon I can have a clean go.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful suffering in this existence, I find it so cruel how existing can easily get worse but anyway I wish you the best, I hope that you find what you search for.

 

[coffeebeany]

I don't have hope for anything anymore. I am doing awful I can't even talk about this to anybody. Life is shit and everything just keeps going worse and worse. I feel like there is no hope for people like me. No theraphy, no hospital, no nothing. I would like to think otherwise but its slowly becoming clear theraphy is for people who strictly have problems like low self-esteem, anxiety or shit that is caused simply by their belifes. Not for people like me. I'm even more fucking sad because I actually like my therapist. And hospital is good for absolutely nothing. I give up. Nothing will ever make anything right, I tried changing and of course it didn't fucking work. It doesn't matter what I do, because life will always find a way to come back to bite me. It's my destiny. I'm so dissapointed I'm fucking turning bitter. I don't like anything anymore. It's no use to tell anybody, theyre gonna say it's all my fault as if I haven't done anything to better myself ever. Or maybe I'm lazy, who gives a shit really? This world doesn't want me in it and I don't really want to be here either. Time to end two pathetic decades of pure humiliation. Things I live for begin to quickly get out my path and soon I can have a clean go.

I fully understand you. I feel the same. I am so so sorry that you are in so much pain and that life has been so hard. You (we all) certainly deserved better. It is very sad but I do feel like sometimes there is no cure for people like us. And it makes us more desperate because people/society keep pushing and insisiting that everyone can and will heal. And that it is basically our obligation to work hard and if we don't improve it's our failure. It's not you fault. You have tried. You have worked hard. If you feel like you have exhausted all possibilities then I believe it is your right to chose whatever you wish.

 

[sharpiemarker]

I fully understand you. I feel the same. I am so so sorry that you are in so much pain and that life has been so hard. You (we all) certainly deserved better. It is very sad but I do feel like sometimes there is no cure for people like us. And it makes us more desperate because people/society keep pushing and insisiting that everyone can and will heal. And that it is basically our obligation to work hard and if we don't improve it's our failure. It's not you fault. You have tried. You have worked hard. If you feel like you have exhausted all possibilities then I believe it is your right to chose whatever you wish.

Omg exactly... People dismiss pain and can only focus on how it's "all your fault" ext. acting like people who are mentally miserable or sick are just misbehaving little brats or something. It makes me really mad and it makes it impossible to try and reach out to people in real life. My therapist asked me if I maybe could try and gain support irl instead of on the internet forums, but he fails to realize that people irl will only yell or throw a hissy fit and say it's all my fault and shit. People can't understand us.