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[eternalbliss22]

The only way to be free of torment is death. I will never be left alone. Fuck them, fuck Christians & their God. Jesus was a cult leader & con man who slept with prostitutes. The most successful con man in history since his con is still running 2000 years later. I yearn for death, but battle SI. I fantasize killing myself all the time. I know one day it'll happen. It did for my brother only it took 11 years. I can't wait that long. I appreciate being able to voice it here. You can't do that in the real world. There's no point in it, most don't care. I'm not killing myself to hurt someone else, no one will give a shit. I do it to be free of a bullying mob, to finally have peace eternal. I was planning on hanging, but now I'm thinking about something different. Leave instructions for care of cats & traveling, ditching my car. Get under the influence of drugs & alcohol, wrapping wire around abdomen & torso, tying a weight, then plunging into a major river. No one will know what happened to me & hopefully my body will never be found.

 

[lionetta12]

The only way to be free of torment is death. I will never be left alone. Fuck them, fuck Christians & their God. Jesus was a cult leader & con man who slept with prostitutes. The most successful con man in history since his con is still running 2000 years later. I yearn for death, but battle SI. I fantasize killing myself all the time. I know one day it'll happen. It did for my brother only it took 11 years. I can't wait that long. I appreciate being able to voice it here. You can't do that in the real world. There's no point in it, most don't care. I'm not killing myself to hurt someone else, no one will give a shit. I do it to be free of a bullying mob, to finally have peace eternal. I was planning on hanging, but now I'm thinking about something different. Leave instructions for care of cats & traveling, ditching my car. Get under the influence of drugs & alcohol, wrapping wire around abdomen & torso, tying a weight, then plunging into a major river. No one will know what happened to me & hopefully my body will never be found.

I really like your take on christianity and Jesus, because I fully agree and I think it's weird in general that people believe in these unbelivable stories. I've delved into religion recently and it's funny how most people in the church I go to are openly saying that they only go there to find people who live a similar life style, not because they really believe in God and the bible stories.

 

[missingpeace]

I also battle SI, going through with hanging is quite a feat. Drowning in a river is as well. You can express yourself as much as you want over here, no-one will judge. Your right death is the only eternal peace and I wish I had it now.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing in this world certainly can be torture and this world is the true hell. I hope that you eventually find the freedom that you wish for, it disgusts me how so much suffering exists here.

 

[ilikecats]

What is SI ?

 

[Sunny-Moon]

What is SI ?

Survival instinct